Truth is, I have had inspiration to write over the past week.
It's just...stuff I can't say online.
I've become a bit watered down when it comes to my post content and what not.
There's no longer a constant urge to write silly little songs or poems complaining about boys or really anything.
There have been so many changes...
so many changes in the past year, looking back on it, all good though.
I'm sure others could say the same.
Once you learn to let go of certain people, certain things, that you once depended so highly upon, and really dive into making other people smile, and even your art, whatever it may be,
you start to realize how much stronger you are
and sometimes even that you're a better person without the people who left.
And while you wish they could be there to see,
just so they could take you seriously,
you fear they might not understand.
Then that fear may even settle in once you realize that you may not have even fully understood each other before.
But after promising God and yourself you know you no longer need them.
You know that you can have flashbacks come to you and be numb.
You know that you have grown as a person and put aside many immature habits of old.
You feel that those who may have held you back probably wouldn't believe you
that you could be this gentle member of society with new and improved outlooks,
but you know that the positivity that surrounds you is new and different...
..and good...and you'll continue to keep growing and exploring the rest of the world and opening your mind and heart.
I'm not the same girl I was a year ago.
Anyone else feel similarly?