Sep 6, 2012
October 15, 2010
Favorite bands :
Alkaline trio, +44, Cradle of Filth, System of a Down, Bullet for My Valentine, Deathmole, Drowning Pool, Senses Fail, Rise Against, Linkin Park, Nine Inch Nails, KMFDM, Nirvana, Mudhoney, A Static Lullaby, Four Letter Lie, Scary Kids Scaring Kids, Emery, Finch, Within Temptation, Dream Theater,
Favorite guitarists :
Kurt Cobain, [insert awe inspiring shredder/acoustic/pa ssionate/soloer here]
Favorite bassists :
Les Claypool, Geddy Lee, Billy Sheehan, Dan Andrianno, Krist Novoselic,
Favorite books :
You know what, if its sci-fi, ill probably like it. If you want to know, just ask.
Favorite tv :
I hate tv these days.
Favorite movies :
Ferris Buellers Day Off, Eternal Sunshine of the Spotless Mind, Juno, 50 Pills, Bickford Schmecklers Cool Ideas,
All my life, everyone expected so much greatness from me. Everything I did was great at. I was active, thinking, creative, my mind was open.
Everything has changed recently. I hate it. I can't talk to my mother, the one who raised me, by her fucking self. Its not that I don't care, its that Im ashamed.
Im ashamed of who I am. The simple fact that Ive let everyone down bothers me. I can't sleep, I can't write, I can't speak. I haven't ran since high school. I was great at that too, dammit! Fuck!
I may be a unique individual, and proud to be alive, but I have no meaning in my life anymore. All I want is to see that special girl, and she hasn't talked to me recently.
I used to be constantly thinking, politics, science, math, music. Anything and everything I could think about, I had a strong opinion on. But lately, i could care less about the world around me.
Yeah, so to sum up... About me: Im confused, lost, scared, and ashamed, but still glad to be alive, I just want things to go differently.