So this boy that I used to be really good friends with commited suicide today. I havent talked to him in months but It inspired me to write something. Everybody really takes things like this for graunted. Everything you hear, everything they say. You never think they mean it or are just making it up. The boy overdosed, on what I don't know yet. He did it out of dying love for his ex girlfriend. Im good friends with the girl. I think Im going to write a song kinda of like Avenged Sevenfolds "I Wont See You Tonight Part 1 & 2". Not two seperate songs but Im gonna make it mostly the boys perspective then the bridge will be like a letter to him from her.
ive never stayed in line, but i always crossed them i never played my cards right, but i held them my hands alone in the crowds today, no one seems come my way but you can, can you save me today?
im caving in, all these walls will come and go until i knock you down, till i know your worth dying for
ill fly away, into the blackness
my scars are beloveded i keep them near
dont grieve for me, your words never grew inside me
its my choice, this is that last chance that i have
so beautiful just look up into my cloudy eyes
ill be sure to leave you a love note, on back of my suicide letter tonight
Theres a world out there, and you plan on it being in the palm of your hand And Where is the fighter that I know Do you remeber where we stand
You left in such a rush Is there anything you behind here It feels like your all grown up Like childhood left you all by yourself
But Ill always believe you, when you say I need you Because you can know trust who, is everything for you.
I wish you really knew how much I need you When your far away, its a little hard think things through And with your attitude and alot of things to do Just hurry please, Ill see you soon Ill be waiting, for the day you come back to see me
I love that when you call you have something to say But I hate that we never get past our day This distance, it just isnt the same Sometimes It sounds like you just want the name
And I know that you have those days
Where everything will get in your way
But remeber that the sky is blue
That Im just a call away from you
Do you know your beautiful to me,
even if you cant always see the boy that I do
I wish you really knew how much I need you When your far away, its a little hard think things through And with your attitude and alot of things to do Just hurry please, Ill see you soon Ill be waiting, for the day you come back to see me
okay so, this guy moved up here from georgia in december and sense then ive gotten really close to him. weve spent alot of time together, and he has gotten to be closer to me than all of my friends except for my very bestfriend. someone that used to mean the world to me isnt there for me the way he used to, and it feels like my new friend has taken his role in my life. its helped me alot cause i need something to fill that spot. now he might leave in about two month probably even sooner. hes going to train for the olympics which im so pround of him being that good at track. hes says hes going to visit my during the summer. the part that tears me is he might stay in georgia. i know hed be so happy down there and i want him to be happy. im going to miss him if he stays there thought. and i think im going to start a song for him. we both have a musical connection and we both express ourselves in music. so i think this will be the best way to tell him how i feel about him and give him something to remember me by. im gonna use this to blog and get ideas for the song. and hopefully i can get it done before he leaves, get some chords written, and show him. i might even tape it and give it too him to watch when he gets to georgia, i think that might be cute. ill give him that along with some other things like the flower he got me and a piece of the roof shingles from our day together. maybe one of the guitar picks i use, or some pictures of us. something cute.. ill figure out some lyrics and write them here as i go.
verse 1 you said that getting close to me wasnt the smartest thing to do ive givin whats left of this broken heart to you i didnt think about the distance, and how you miss your past i couldnt work up the nerve to tell myself, that this wasnt gonna last
chorus (start of chorus) how are you gonna stay so far away? and what will happen to my happy days? you opened my eyes for the first time i can say that ive never, truely ever felt this way
verse 2 (start of verse 2) dear my distant romeo, does it feel like home yet? hang on to this moment, promise you wont forget all the colors in your eyes, wont fade from my mind a forbidden love, torn apart by time
pre-chorus and ill stay up, to hear you sweet, heavyhearted voice the end is near and i have no other choice
bridge can we make time stand so still? so i can get one last taste of you before you take my heart, a thousand miles away
chorus how are you gonna stay so far away? and what will happen to my happy days? you opened my eyes for the first time i can say that ive never, truely ever felt this way
okay, i got bored in class and decied to write some short lyrics. tell me which ones are the best and if you want even add your own on to it. theyre just little bits and pieces of songs, theyre okkay sounding in my mind, i want to know what you think. cmnts, thank you
one
but dont hold your breath my dear, i wont walk on water
im loaded to the brim with words that could ease my mind
but will i miss this exclusive shot in the dark
because theres an aplitude of errors, all in your very direction
if your not hurt, i wont go running after you
two
our love is like water, its indescribable
after all, you cant desribe something thats not there
there was nothing there
blank expressions followed faraway walls
we played our parts, and dance to this song
we call each other out, with deceitful heart
with no knowledge of what was really there
three
rewind my story, and play it again
as i read off the words ive spoken too many times before
the never ending sitiuations, that is spilling from your fingers
i might just have to make a scene, and split the silent feature
so yesterday i watched some documentary about metal. only caught the last about ten minutes of it but it made me want to write something about it. i talked about the real metal. the ways and life of it. and alot of issues and crap it gets from the so called normal people. its true, metal and all the heavy music that goes along with it is strange to most people. and the ones who follow it are the outsiders and outcasts of not only music sort of the world in the whole scene of it all. if that made any sence. most people see it as violence and self mutalation. if you look at me im not violent compared to most and i dont hurt myself or anybody other than me. we understand the music because it relates to our lives and the troubles we face. the real deep problems in our lives, and the moments in life you feel most alive. it brings out the emotion in you. go look at a concert crowd and the pit. at shallow glace you see the dark, dangerous outside and you hear screaming and loud random rythms. but once you get in the inside, once your in the gang of metalheads its a different story. mosh pits to get all the feelings out, most people just see it as people beating the crap out of each other when its really a way of expressing your emotions for the song playing. a way to dig deeper in the harmony. every headbang and movement is attached to the flow and beats. all sucking you in your own little world of passion.
its all basically a big club if you will. of people with a common code, all with alot of the same ideas, personality, and thought. the most amazing part is nobody could know each other but that would still all be true. your instantly accepted by everyone and you have that belonging feeling being surrounded by what you see as people like you. i know this feeling, going to my first concert. i didnt know what to expect. i was about half way from the stage with a few smell pits around me but the bodys beside me were shaking from the comotion. my two friends i had with me were dating and one got claustaphobic and freaked out so the both of them dragged me out of the crowd. i about lost it and ran off, then a few minutes later plunged back into the crowd. i met alot of nice people and we worked our way back a little deeper in than i was before. we laughed and had the whole concert spirit with us. shadows fall was playing at the time but i knew i had to be closer up for avenged. i was determind to get up as close as possible. and if you ever been to a concert before youd can tell in a second how determinded i was to get up front. as you all know, once you get about three fourths of the way to the front it gets packed. wall to wall, body to body, no where. and i mean no where to move. you were now part of the swirling mass called mosh pit. every once and a while someone would be stupid enough to try to move up in the crowd, thats when i took the opertunity to move up. being only five foot two, and a girl it wasnt hard to squeeze through most of the people. some took a little longer to move or i just had to find a different way. i was with another guy, both of us helping the other to get up close. he offered to crowd surf me up but after getting people dropped on me all night i thought i was a really bad idea. finally after what seemed like forever i got up as far as possible to the stage. up against the railing. there was a little area for the lucky people that got passes to be up close but i wasnt far from avenged. close enough to get amazing views (and what amazing views the were heh). i remember standing in the pit with all my new friends around me, some guys were bugging/hitting on me but hey, what do you expect? you see avenged roadies and managers coem on stage. the guitar techs tune syn and zackys guitars and everything gets set up. the lights go off. it seemed like the sound check went on forever. then you see the rev pop out from behind his set and critical acclaim starts playing. syn was still not out and the first glimmer of the guitar was about to play when he storms out playing the first few notes and everybody went a little bit insane. i thought i was going to faint, because hes my idol above everyone on earth. and oh, hes adorable but so well sinister hehe. they all looked fierce and devilish, it was insane. shadows finally walked out on stage screaming and the pounding guitar riffs poured out of syn and zackys guitars. the rush became over powering and the sound about blew my ear drums. i hear something along the lines of "HUNNINGTON, WEST VIRGINIA ARE YOU READY TO ROCK?!?! LET ME SEE EVERY F*CKING HAND UP IN THE AIR!!!!" his voice was heaven to my ears. they played critical acclaim, afterlife, scream, beast and the harlot, bat countrym sieze the day, almost easy, gunslinger, and unholy confessions. for the encore a little piece of heaven. it was refreshing to see a band that interacted with their fans and talked to them. i swear syn looked right at me, it was awesome. i loved how he would joke with the crowd and on ALOPH he would roll his eyes back and freak when the rev sang "ripped his heart out right before his eyes!". it was histaricaly funny yet i loved it. i remember he flipped some guy off and slammed back on his guitar for a quick rythm then flipped him off with both hands. he cracks me up. they would talk to each other on stage and all of them would occasionaly take a beer break hah. they sounded the same as they do on my ipod and i was relieved they did. theyre a real band that knows their stuff. over all incredible, every single second. i wish i coulda seen more of shadows and the rest of them but since syn is my favorite i was on his side of the stage. but im glad. i cant wait till their next concert around here, i want to eventaully hopefully meet and greet with them or meet them some how. maybe for a quick snap shot or autograph, anythings fine. the shirt i wore that day still smells like smoke, beer, pot, and sweat. im surprised my hair still doesnt smell like all the beer that was dumped on me. i wouldnt even mind. i love avenged sevenfold
hey UG people, im trying to make my first song for my maybe-band. tell me what you really think of them. theyre not a song yet, i just wrote random stuff down when i thought of something i liked so theyre in no order.
its a suicidal judgement-
any word will be used against us-
up so high but hanging on our words-
there must be something up there-
opposites at war-
its coming down to a sick society-
erase my memory-
well fall on brokenhearted battlefields-
creating our foes-waiting to fire-
well never get the signal-haloed demons-
we cant do a thing-depend on us-
oblivious path-
the truth must be told-
we took it too far.
thanks to anyone that comment s about these, i really need some opinions.
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