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Douglas Adams aside, this blog will now be about things.
Like how I still have yet to quit smoking, although I have dropped around 10-15 pounds.
I don't know, sometimes moving on with life seems very... strange. Alien, almost. I'm 20 years old, I'll be 21 on March 5th. But I really just don't feel that old. Sure, I feel mature, but that's just how I am, how I've always been.
I still just feel like a teenager for some reason. I'm sure the fact that I'm single, work in the same place I did in high school, and still live at home is not helping much (but hey it saves an assload of money on college).
But it's not so much that as much as it just feels weird somewhat doing adult things, or spending money on "adult" things or very expensive things (within reason). Take the past few months. I bought a brand new Xbox, dropped over $800 on PC parts, paid car insurance, bought a classy desk (steel, glass and chrome whaaaaaaaat), spent over $300 dollars on christmas for my family, paid exorbitant amounts of money in gas, tuition, books, insurance, and phone bills...
I guess what the point of this convoluted excuse for a blog post is that I find it weird that I'm actually able to drop this money on these things and still leave myself in a position where I'm still able to live through to the next paycheck. It's strange and foreign actually having a budget to stick to. To not blow my money on stupid shit like I used to.
Hell I even have schedules made up for myself. When I'm not in class, I'm at work. If I'm not at work, I'm in class. If I'm not at either, I'm either doing homework or staying up super late just to have some chill time. I'm a founding father of a fraternity chapter at VCU, and I have responsibilities via committees and other things...
I'm growing up.
And honestly, it's slightly frightening. But I don't think it's because I have more responsibilities or that I'm buying large items or paying off "adult" things to pay for like bills and shit.
I think it's because of what I said earlier. I have all this responsibility. In a month I'll be a fully legal adult.
But I still feel like some stupid, awkward kid. And that unnerves me.
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