That notes supposed to be a carlin-esque rant on how so many of these guys look alike, but i think it ended up backfiring, due to the nature of the internet, I can't really talk to them face to face, so now I'm just sitting here... and I can feel my depression taking over again. I actually really don't want to be writing this, I'd rather be back in bed, sleeping.I feel like a block of the titanic has been put upon my shoulders, so much so that I can only move my fingers to type this. I really should have just shut up and just been a good boy. Amirite? Mind you these are the best friends anyone could ask for. Ever. And I really think I ruined our friendships by writing that note.
I don't even want to play guitar or games anymore, just want to go back to bed and think about what I did. I reiterate, the best friends. Ever. I'd probably be in a ditch somewhere if it weren't for these folks. I did not direct that note in any way towards them, nor would I ever, even if a loaded gun was put to my temple. Never. I'm sorry that i wrote that note, even more sorry now that I can't say it to them in person. It was not meant for them, but I think they took it personally.
So i'm sitting in the music store playing technical difficulties, waiting for ms_tickley to show up and all of a sudden, so asian man in an olive green jacket starts shredding fur elise on steroids. His left hand was playing the original melody and his right hand was doing shawn lane meets beethoven.
I just stopped playing.... put down the guitar and watched in awe.
This just made me realize how much I suck at music and how far I have to go left.
I just watched his video on the modes of the major scale.
And as an added bonus, he played a little something using each mode at the end of each explanation. His mastery of technique and theory just leaves me in awe. I think I have a new guitar hero.
Though it was brief, my romance with my gf is at it's end, we are now just friends, though very good ones. It was fun, I mean I'll still jack off to her in my sleep, but in real life we'll keep the romeo and juliet to a minimum.
Lau here, feeling depressed about my gf. We can never talk to each other in private, to share our feelings for each other. I just can't take much more of it. Not having a father to love, I was very lonely as a kid, my mom was always struggling to provide for me, and when my sister came along, she was even more hard pressed. I just needed someone to love, and one day I met her.
Her name was Chanelle, a beautiful, innocent girl, just starting high school, and I, just starting my victory lap. Over the months we kept in touch, and more recently had ourselves a little romance in the guise of a brother/sister relationship(people say we look alike, despite our last names being different) I love her so much, and it hurts me everyday to see her and just say "Hi, whatcha doin'?" When it should be more like "Hey sweetie, let me help you finish your lunch"
I'm just really lost right now, does she even love me back? Or is she just saying it o humor me? And as I write this blog in my school library, and thinking of going back home, where I can't even catch a glimpse of Chanelle, i'm getting even more depressed.
Well.... enough of my bellyaching...
Have a good day ug'ers.
Love,
sock_demon(Lau)
Heh, I really like this font. Guess that's one thing that makes me giggle anymore.....
Christopher Lau at st augustine catholic high school (The one with the balls dp)
ADD ME FOOLS.
Smells like Nirvana in here....
Porcupines are evil, they popped my G-string
Thinly slice one small onion, put the slices on a piece of bread, put some cold cuts on it, preferably roast beef, and melt some cheese, cheddar is good, but I use havarti. And there you have a good 10-minute snack.
God, I love Canarios by Sanz, I played it rather bad in class (just learned it, need to put it to memory) but I got a lot of compliments of how romantic it sounds
Gotta learn pavagnila next.
And sir john smith his almaine by Dowland is TOO good.
I wanna learn how to play mandolin, banjo, and lute now
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(The one with the balls dp)
