Well, time to totally go against what i said in the last blog. I could say i'm old enough now but..cmon. lol.
Common cliche' story here. I love a girl and she doesn't seem to understand. She doesn't think we will work out but she says she loves me. Very confusing situation. We get along great (until she starts acting like she doesnt want to talk, i just try to keep acting happy to keep from causing issues) and i finally get the nerve to ask her out and she shoots me down. It wouldn't change anything to "date" so i don't understand. Maybe she's scared and doesn't want it to change. I just love her a lot. I talk to her everyday, in fact she's the first and last everyday. I try to make her feel special and such but, never seems to work. I mean i wait all day to get to talk to her and i text her when i get out of school, and some days i get a text back 5-6 hours later. I don't think she'd text me at all if i didn't send a "hey beautiful, how was your day?" everyday. I understand that maybe she's busy or something, but i honestly do not know the last time she texted me first. I mean i'd move on if she said, hey it won't work out. But as of now there's a chance, and i don't wanna lose that chance. I dont know. I love this girl more then anything. Guess i've got to just wait it out.
I've always wanted to write down my ideas so sure why not UG. Hell they probably won't get looked at anyway.
I was thinking about the whole love thing. Why do kids in like jr. high and high school even try dating. I can't see an outcome that's likely enough to make it worth the effort. I see people date all the time (including me) and it always ends the same. The chances of finding someone that you are actually going to stay with seem small. I'm not saying it's not possible, but i see 7th graders dating guys and wearing engagement rings and just dumb things like that. Do they think that he is honestly going to want her after the 5-6 years it takes to be able to actually marry? I'm pretty sure he just wants the same thing I and every other guy wants at that age, and it's definately not marriage. I really hate when I have to see girls crying because their relationship ended. I see cuts on some wrists and i see plenty of other things that are just pathetic for kids at this age. I think as teenagers we think that things are the same as they are when we are graduated and such. The fact is it's not. I try to think of all relationships as temporary for now. Sometimes i hope it'll be more but it never is (suprising huh?). I'm not sure how important these relationships are when we actually do graduate and we go on dates with potential mates. I haven't made it that far yet. Maybe the bad gradeschool experiences make everyone very cautious in later ones. Maybe everyone goes through this stage of realization before they get serious lol. The main reason i wrote this is because there was this girl i knew. She's really smart, could have went to college, gotten a job, had a nice comfortable life. But she dated this, well, loser. I say loser because he doesn't even try in school, and wants to just graduate and go work in the oil feild. This loser got her pregnant and because of this she never even bothered applying for college. So basiclly i'm guessing she'll be a stay at home mom while her future husband (who knows how long that will last) brings home a mediocre salary. The same kind of scenario seems to happen alot around here, all because we think everyone we fall in love with is out "true love". I guess ill end my rant here. To anyone reading this, especially young girls from my school, don't take love too seriously lol.
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