even though it just started, its been not very great...
(its 12:45 here, so just after noon)
..I woke up at 12, went downstairs and got some breakfast
while I'm eating, I get a phone call..
I don't think you were around when I was talking about this friend before, but in a nutshell, for about 2 years, we were best friends.. then she started getting back into drugs and stuff, and started trying to use me for money/rides/ect. and from then on, we've been kind on and off as friends. she tries to take advantage of me, so I stop talking to her. she comes back in a week with a big apology and all that, then it happens all over again.
then a few weeks a go I just stopped talking to her. it hurts me too much to hope shes the person she used to be, then find out she just wants to gain my trust back for something she wants to gain..
..so she calls me..
"Hello?" "Hey, what're you doing right now?" "Uhhh, just eating some froot loops, you?" "Wanna drive me to McDonalds?" "umm. not really.. I'm not dressed or anything, anyway, and I"m already eating.." "so get dressed?" "..but I"m already eating.." "please?" "...do you even have any money?" ".....no" "so then why would you even ask me?" "I'd only get something from the $1.39 menu...its not that much.." "..no. find someone else to take money from.."
and so on..
..so I'm just not in the best mood, cause i get my hopes up too easily (that maybe shes back to who she used to be), then let myself get hurt too badly(that no. shes not even close to who she used to be, and shes only kept my friendship for monetary gain)...
..bleh..
/long reply.
I"ll put it in a blog in a few minutes, then delete most of this post..
..so basically, it's just all over the place.
she calls, so I get my hopes up that she's back to the person I was best friends with, then I let myself get too hurt that she's not changed..
i think i have read this post before. it seems familiar to me...
i just hope that you'd have good luck next time with that girl.
but the important thing is to not let yourself get hurt and be used.
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