A lot of people have been pissing me off lately over music. I was with a girl and I aksed her what kind of music she likes. She responded by saying that she liked all kinds of music. I asked me what kind of jazz fusion she listens to. she then replied that he didnt know any jazz fusion bands. Well shit, if you are going to go around saying you liek all kinds of music, you damn well better like all kinds of music.
I got into a discussion last week about which bands were better. Eventually we got to comparing Tool and Linkin Park. I pointed out that linkin park lyrics are completely meaningless and generic and I find their music boring to listen to. The people gave absolutely no reason that linking park was better and would just state that tool sucks. That really pissed me off.
I believe that there are no such thing as a bad action, there is only a bad consquence. For example, lying is not wrong at all; it is only consquences of lying that are wrong. Lying to save someones life would be perfectly acceptable, whereas lying to kill someone would be wrong. The problem with this line of thinking is that people are so self-centered they would not be able to properly evaluate the consquences of their actions. A person is generally unble to think outside themselves and look at tghe bigger picture.
I was riding in the car with a two of my friends and one of them talked about how the suburbs are slowly killing us and making us all the same. I replied that throughout human history, humanity has been basically uniform. The idea of differences being positive is a new idea. I don't think being unique is important and I would definitely stop if everyone wasn't so fucking stupid. I yearn for the day when everyone will hold the exact same views as me on everything.
Yesterday, a couple of my friends went off-roading. There were about 8 people in the truck and none of them were wearing seatbelts. Two of them werent even in the car. On a sharp turn, the car slid out and finally tipped. no one was hurt. Today, the kid who was driving walked around school like he was a bad ass. Hes not. Hes a stupid cunt and could have gotten someone killed. Teenagers are dumb as fuck.
I fucking hate Ayn Rand. We had to read Anthem in English class. Worst book ever. She argues against straw men the whole time and attacks ideas that on one ever espoused. I also hate how my school sends mixed messages to us. We are told to live for ourselves and only be concerned with our own wellbeing and caring for others is evil, but they expect us to send our time to volunteer in our community. Ayn Rand is stupid and if you think that she has good ideas, you are stupid too.
Last Thursday I tripped on acid for the first time. Id been meaning to do it for a while, but I never had the chance. I spent the night at one of my friend's house and tripped with two other friends while the friend sat for us. We got the acid from his college age brother. At about 8, Brian and I both took three hits. As soon as I got out of the bathroom, Andrew said that we were going to go smoke with Acacia and Geneive. I was really nervous because I didnt know how the acid would affect me and I didnt feel safe leaving the house.
Well, we left. Andrew was driving and we picked them up. They smoked while I looked at the stars with Brian. I noticed that all my inhibitions were gone and I felt pretty relaxed and calm. We went back to Acacia's house and started watching Across the Universe. We left about half way through. We got back to Kurt's house at about 10 and brian and I realized that we should be peaking right about now. We werent really feeling very much so we decided t try to get more from Kris. The acid was in a little moutwash bottle. Brian got two drops, Andrew, who was a little bit high, took three and I got to lick the top of the container while Andrew got to suck on the rest. THe first hallucination I really noticed was the sea shells in the bathroom were vibrating a little bit. Kris gave me an Ipod and put on Shpongle. I closed my eyes and saw little frogs for the drum beats. I was then in a rainforest and it was really crazy. I opened my eyes and talked about friendships and relationships for about 30 minutes. I then went over to Brian. He was watching Primus videos. We drew pictures in a notebook. It was awesome.
I played around with a couple of titles for this blog and none of them really seemed to fit.
A couple of my friends have become self desctructive because they think that there lives are difficult. I dont understand this at all. If my dad had cancer, I be the best behaved kid in the world. If my dad left my mom to live in los vegas, I would most certainly not get fucked up as often as I could in order to express my sorrow. Grow the fuck up and act like a fucking man. Everyone has problems. Everyone has problems. You are not special in suffering and you have no reason to fuck up your life to prove how bad you have it. Teenagers make me fucking sick. fucking idiots...
I realized after I finished that most people tend to have this idea that they are special and what they go through no one has ever gone through before. Let me be the first to pop this fucking bubble. You are not the first person to break up with your girlfriend. The only thing that makes you special is the fact that you bitch about it two months afterwords and get fucked up to "relieve the pain". Cut that shit out and be a fucking man. Go to school and make good grades because that is what your future depends on. Teenages are selfish and extremely short-sighted.
After thinking about it, Ill name it after denny's blog.
Ive been thinking a lot about what I want to do with my life and I think I want to move to the Carribean/South Pacific with some friends after high school and live off the money I make working summers in high school. Ill get a job as a guitarist in a bar. Ill surf all day and play gigs all night. I really would if I could...
I had to waste a class period today listening to a counselor talk about how we need to get ready for college. We were told that we needed volunteer hours to impress colleges. Then I thought, how the hell does wasting your time doing stupid shit impress them? Getting volunteer hours basically means that you are a fake, souless little whore who will do anything impress people. I am not going to jump through hopes to get into college. Im not going to waste my life doing stupid shit to try to make someone think Im something Im not.
This is my first blog. Please dont slam my lack of writting skill.
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