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Thursday, April 23, 2009

I wish

Current mood: pessimistic

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'I'm not any good at hiding the hymn that I play'

Aaron Lewis

However, I wish I was. I wish I was different.

Both Physically and mentally.

Everything I do seems to have a negative impact on someone one way or another and I can't seem to stop it. I'm either to insensitive, to depressing, to whiny, to this, to that and to be fair, I am all of those things.

But I wish I wasn't

I wish I could help my girlfreind when she needs the help so desperately but she just goes to her freinds instead because I can't. I wish I could stop lashing out at people who don't deserve to be on the receiving end of my anger.
 I look at myself in the mirror, and I see nothing but failure and disappointment. I have achieved nothing in my life.

I'm lazy, I procrastinate, I'm physically attractive. Why would anyone want to be with me or be my freind?

I don't understand.

People say I'm attention seeking, and to be perfectly truthful, I think I am in some respects. In a relationship I'm the clingy type that always wants to see you and be with you. I over-react when someone does something(or sometimes when they don't do anything as the case sometimes may be)and I am emotionally unstable.

I wish I was different.

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kr46 wrote on Apr 22nd, 2009 11:30pm

You seem to know what your faults are and many are faults everyone has in certain ways,,yes you seem very insecure and lashing out is a self defence machanism to stop people getting close and hurting you,,as for achieveing things in life what do we have to achieve?,,you are setting yourself goals but not following through so this is why you feel that way ,,just take each day as it comes..There must be a lot of qualities you have or people and your girlfriend would not exist....
We are all emotionally unstable ,,some more than others ,

There is no rule book for this life we write it ourselves as we go along,,feeling like this will eat you up if you let the demons write the rules for you..DON'T LET THEM...i speak from exsperience.....You want to change Start now.



Yngwi3 wrote on Apr 23rd, 2009 1:04am

"I'm lazy, I procrastinate, I'm physically attractive. Why would anyone want to be with me or be my freind?"

Because you're also friendly, funny, an awesome songwriter, reliable, a great musician (not just guitarist), and just a great person to be around.

Everyone has their demons man - but they also have their positive points. It's part of being what I like to call 'human' :)

Wish you the best man.


SteveHouse wrote on Apr 23rd, 2009 8:19pm


I went through a phase like this. Then I realized that trying to make everybody happy just doesn't make you happy, because we don't tend to include ourselves in everybody.


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