Everything I do seems to have a negative impact on someone one way or another and I can't seem to stop it. I'm either to insensitive, to depressing, to whiny, to this, to that and to be fair, I am all of those things.
But I wish I wasn't.
I wish I could help my girlfreind when she needs the help so desperately but she just goes to her freinds instead because I can't. I wish I could stop lashing out at people who don't deserve to be on the receiving end of my anger.
I look at myself in the mirror, and I see nothing but failure and disappointment. I have achieved nothing in my life.
I'm lazy, I procrastinate, I'm physically attractive. Why would anyone want to be with me or be my freind?
I don't understand.
People say I'm attention seeking, and to be perfectly truthful, I think I am in some respects. In a relationship I'm the clingy type that always wants to see you and be with you. I over-react when someone does something(or sometimes when they don't do anything as the case sometimes may be)and I am emotionally unstable.
You seem to know what your faults are and many are faults everyone has in certain ways,,yes you seem very insecure and lashing out is a self defence machanism to stop people getting close and hurting you,,as for achieveing things in life what do we have to achieve?,,you are setting yourself goals but not following through so this is why you feel that way ,,just take each day as it comes..There must be a lot of qualities you have or people and your girlfriend would not exist....
We are all emotionally unstable ,,some more than others ,
There is no rule book for this life we write it ourselves as we go along,,feeling like this will eat you up if you let the demons write the rules for you..DON'T LET THEM...i speak from exsperience.....You want to change Start now.
THE LONGEST JOURNEY STARTS WITH THE FIRST STEP.......peace.