'I'm not any good at hiding the hymn that I play'
However, I wish I was. I wish I was different.
Both Physically and mentally.
Everything I do seems to have a negative impact on someone one way or another and I can't seem to stop it. I'm either to insensitive, to depressing, to whiny, to this, to that and to be fair, I am all of those things.
But I wish I wasn't.
I wish I could help my girlfreind when she needs the help so desperately but she just goes to her freinds instead because I can't. I wish I could stop lashing out at people who don't deserve to be on the receiving end of my anger.
I look at myself in the mirror, and I see nothing but failure and disappointment. I have achieved nothing in my life.
I'm lazy, I procrastinate, I'm physically attractive. Why would anyone want to be with me or be my freind?
I don't understand.
People say I'm attention seeking, and to be perfectly truthful, I think I am in some respects. In a relationship I'm the clingy type that always wants to see you and be with you. I over-react when someone does something(or sometimes when they don't do anything as the case sometimes may be)and I am emotionally unstable.
I wish I was different.