I don't really know why im on UG right now, but I am.... for the first time in a few months. I guess i'll just throw up whats been going on...
my band is back on track, thanks to cassiday (www.myspace.com/aafoblivion) I started talking to Kenna, the love of my life and best friend, more and more again, which helped me figure out why i was so depressed and suicidal. Every night I don't talk to her, i cant stop thinking about killing myself so I talk to her as much as possible and she and dean are the only ones who really know or have any idea, but i owe my life to them and would gladly give it up for them. Things have gotten better... my first quarter of school is over pretty soon, and I dont know if i have another class with kenna, but it shouldnt affect much since we need each other for a lot of support. She knows i love her and we both know that we cant risk a relationship because it can go bad again and we cant afford to lose each other, so i will bide my time and be the best friend i can, even if it doesnt mean a relationship.
i love kenna to death and i love dean too
it doesnt matter how many friends that you have... its who your best friends are, what they do for you and most importantly... what you do for them.
my heart has four chambers and only two are filled one with lust the other with envy my loves and regrets flow freely throughout my body while my shortcomings and insecurities flow straight into my heart
this lonely man sits here on the corner of dreams and demons twiddling his thumbs until death becomes his only companion in his pathetic excuse for a life when the mask of fantasy gets ripped off reality rears its grotesque face and rips your soul in two...
all of this we record by ourselves on my computer at home... please feel free to add and talk to us becuase we LOVE our fans!!!
On to business... I am starting my senior year of high school/sophomore year of College and I am working towards my AA, so I'm starting to think a lot about my future and where I want to go. All I know is that UG isn't a big part of that, if it even is a part. I need to work on my study habits, find a job and start doing more with imashark. As for my future here, i plan on making a GB&C thread for a classical guitar I am planning on making, and I WILL occasionally lurk, and maybe give my seal of approval/disapproval on threads.
Thanks for your time and keep in touch!
-Kyle
P.S. feel free to message me here on UG or on myspace... i am always up for talking to all of you!
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