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Wednesday, April 29, 2009


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This is where I reveal some sick, immature, and probably not too shocking truths about myself.

  • I have extremely low self esteem, and constantly want to be shown affection (read: I'm an attention whore).

  • I'm on a constant mission of self validation, often using others to feel better about myself and give myself a sense of purpose.

  • I attach myself to others, in a mental and emotional sense as to delude myself into thinking that I am wanted by people who in all honesty, would not be different if I had not come along.

  • I want nothing more than to have a profound affect on people, which is something that I have rarely done in my life.

  • I get stuck in self destructive spirals to the point of which I'm in bad moods for days on end, dragging down any who will listen.

  • I get stuck in these moods because I find fault in most things in life, where most others are content with the situation.

  • I fall for people far more than I should, often being disappointed by the outcome, sometimes losing contact with them altogether.

  • I'm socially awkward, despite the best effort on my part to convince people to like me.

  • I'm secretly jealous of those who have stable relationships, because they have a steady stream of support and affection that I lack from anyone, including the people who bore me into the world.

  • By sharing these, I am only confirming that I am, in fact, an attention whore, who wants nothing more than to be shown pity and affection.
Let the alienation begin..!
12:15 am - 3 comments - 4 Kudos - Report!
SomebodySomeone wrote on May 7th, 2009 9:29am

aren't we all abit like that?


i luv quizzy :heart:


ShelbyLynn wrote on Jun 5th, 2009 2:40am

In all honestly, i'm the exact same way
But usually in denial about it.
You're a stronger man that I for admitting it.
I'd love to say it's just teen angst, and it'll pass
but who really knows.
What I do know though, is that you will have your steady relationship
you will have a great effect on peoples lives
and you are too hard on yourself
You're actually amazing
no one looks at you with a more skeptical eye than yourself.
You say you can't be content with anything now
so I'm not sure how much any of this will mean to you
but you'll be happy someday, and you'll make others happy.
I love you.


xcynicx wrote on Jun 7th, 2009 1:21am

Oh, Andy, are you reading my journal again? XD. For sure, though. Most definitely describes me.


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