It's been a while since I've been on UG..I really miss the people!<3..I just made a myspace so if you want to add me my url is (downwiththesickness7)
a bunch has happend since I've last written....It's been like 2 months since Reese and I broke up...I guess what I thought was love..was just a cover up...I saw him today and yesterday at a festival our town holds every summer..his booth was right next to mine..it was aweful..yesterday I had a major breakdown..and had to leave the festival..because it felt like my heart was ripped out of my chest..
but, it's not like I'm not trying to move on..I am..It's just I gave him so much of me..it impossible to get everything back...I'm broken hearted for some reason...I keep trying to tell my self "Tiffany, if he was the one he wouldn't have broken your heart"..but...doesn't everyone break your heart or let you down?....but, No...this is different..because he's not willing to fix it...
STOP thinking about it?......it's too late...
He should have never said everything he said...
"I love you..I'll never give up on you and you never give up on us...your the only one, Tiffany...I could never love anyone else....I would want God to take me home, if you ever left me..I would never do what we do with anyone else..I will never touch another girl the way I touch you..I will never hurt you again, I don't want to loose you...I want to marry you...what's your ring size?...I want to be in your future"..
how can someone say these things and then tell you ..
"somethings changed...I've been feeling like I don't love you anymore.."
then I wait a few weeks with him not telling me that he loves me living in heart ache of not being near him....then, only to end it with...
"I'm tired of waiting for you to decide if you love me or not..let me make up your mind...you don't because otherwise you wouldn't have to think about it"...
making me whisper those words of the end
"I will always love you.."
Then speed of listening to "the animal I've become"..not realising that those lyrics would make me who I am becoming...an animal
and i sorta know what you feel
but time heals and you'll become a stronger person
and one day you will find someone who will say those words and keep them
Just let God take control and you'll find the right one when you aren't looking and and least expecting it
but until time heals you
heres a hug *hugs*