(VERSE one) you overwhelmed me with Joy happiness destroys this pastense disguise giving you my all getting nothing back taken by suprise Your turn, you have lost you'll never get another chance gave you my all got nothing back just take of your pants
[CHORUS] Love, we're done believing sick and tire of bleeding give me surreal so I won't be able to feel if this is a cut or a bruise maybe love is something I won't loose this time it won't be so bad if you don't say you love me back
(Verse2) Baby, Oh baby you know how to sway me give it to me like a lie something I can hide turn me on then tune me out give me something you know nothing about Hurt me differnt then you've done before don't be gentle I can't take your sympathy I can't take your stealy eyes stabing into me
(Verse3) Hate me good don't be so nice my pain is no more a price I gave you love I gave you surrender now I think I found something better cut my throat and and let my heart bleed into your hands watch as it stops to skip a beat. and then, maybe you'll understand distinct.
It's been a while since I've been on UG..I really miss the people!<3..I just made a myspace so if you want to add me my url is (downwiththesickness7)
a bunch has happend since I've last written....It's been like 2 months since Reese and I broke up...I guess what I thought was love..was just a cover up...I saw him today and yesterday at a festival our town holds every summer..his booth was right next to mine..it was aweful..yesterday I had a major breakdown..and had to leave the festival..because it felt like my heart was ripped out of my chest..
but, it's not like I'm not trying to move on..I am..It's just I gave him so much of me..it impossible to get everything back...I'm broken hearted for some reason...I keep trying to tell my self "Tiffany, if he was the one he wouldn't have broken your heart"..but...doesn't everyone break your heart or let you down?....but, No...this is different..because he's not willing to fix it...
STOP thinking about it?......it's too late...
He should have never said everything he said...
"I love you..I'll never give up on you and you never give up on us...your the only one, Tiffany...I could never love anyone else....I would want God to take me home, if you ever left me..I would never do what we do with anyone else..I will never touch another girl the way I touch you..I will never hurt you again, I don't want to loose you...I want to marry you...what's your ring size?...I want to be in your future"..
how can someone say these things and then tell you ..
"somethings changed...I've been feeling like I don't love you anymore.."
then I wait a few weeks with him not telling me that he loves me living in heart ache of not being near him....then, only to end it with...
"I'm tired of waiting for you to decide if you love me or not..let me make up your mind...you don't because otherwise you wouldn't have to think about it"...
making me whisper those words of the end
"I will always love you.."
Then speed of listening to "the animal I've become"..not realising that those lyrics would make me who I am becoming...an animal
so it's been about 4 days..and I'm still hanging on..I'm missing him but..trying to be a strong minded girl..some one I thought I was...his brother drove by my house...we talked for a while..even though his not allowed to see me either... he said he "accidently" honked his horn and stoped his car..lol..See we used to have a band together way back when!...It was Reese, Ranse, Me, Brady, and sometimes Justin & Mellisa...but..we split up because his parents thought I was bad so they kind of forbid them from seeing me...let me remind you..they are 18 & 17 years old..I think it is about time to cut the cord. Any way it was nice talking to Ranse and he said he misses hanging out and jaming together and going to the movies with our youth group..he said he's going to the same college as me next semester and that we should hang out..which is awesome..because he gets along with my family..but I don't like Ranse like that..he's just a really amazing friend..plus I'm still madly in love with his brother...but, I'm kind of scared he's going to start sneaking around his parents to be my friend..which was the same thing Reese was doing(except it was in a romantic way)..I don't want to start something good in the wrong way again..ugh..I don't know if I should be his friend with him disobeying his parents or say.."hey, maybe you should let your parents know I'm not as bad as they think I am..because your an awesome christian friend and I don't want to mess things up again".. URGH idk..what do you think I should do Joe?..lol..since your subscribed to my blog..lol
Saturday, May 3rd, 2008 -- Whatever you do in a relationship now is likely to have lasting consequences. But even if everything is going well, some of the benefits may take a while to manifest. Don't quit even if your path seems difficult. It's not necessary to try to talk your way out of the somber feelings or the sense of disappointment. This is temporary and won't last, so don't waste too much energy fighting what will soon pass on its own.
okay here's my horoscope...it's so on que it's crazy..it normally is..which is quite strange since I don't even believe in it...
Well, today I finally let him go...
I still Love him with more than anyone could ever imagine...but, we needed to do this long ago
..His parents still don't know..almost two years..it seems like he just left my house and I just caught my breath again. I already miss him like crazy...but, someone once told me
"somethings you have to set free and if they return then It's desinty"
I gave so much of me to him..that I feel that there's nothing left for me to give to another being..all the songs I wrote for him, I feel like they're meant to never be sang again..all the words I spoke into existence for him, I could never say to anyone else..although I still haven't got it in me to take his necklace off ...or take his pictures down...or stop using the perfume he gave me... I'm still full of hope...but so tired of waiting to FULLY be loved back with no restrain just to be embraced with only his arms of gentle happiness...to find that he's here because how HE feels ..and not just because I would be crushed and never be able to as happy, determined, passionate, loved, cared for, honest or as pleased with anyonese else besides him.
with a piece of my heart still left to give
I extend it out
So you can receive the rest of it
I was hurt only once before
But my fear of never to be loved
Has now been torn
You took the threat away
To only hear your heart sing to me
As you hold me close
A tune that will never betray
A lullaby with unset memories
That I pray will never go away
So what’s left
Is now yours
My heart weeps
Wounded and scorn
The layer that hasn’t been touched
Is thin, I tried to nurse it back to health
But it wasn’t much, there wasn’t enough
To bring it back whole again
So I waited till love caught up with time
Till you found me, and you became mine
Although there’s not much
Although it wasn’t kept
You can take the rest
You can have what is left
Baby, step after step
I went to fast
nothing can last
But, maybe this will
Maybe I’m healed
Heart spoken memories
Broken inside of me
What was love
Was not right
What I fought for
Wasn’t even a fight.
[back to CHORUS]
By: Tiffany Jones
Does he love me?
Does he love me not?
If he does
Will it ever stop, tomorrow?
If I told him a secret
Would he hold?
Would he keep it, tomorrow?
If it lasts
If it fades away, tomorrow
Will we be friends?
Will you tell me?
Pretty please, tomorrow?
Is this LOVE,
That I’m feeling?
Is this love?
Or should I be leaving, tomorrow?
Tomorrow…Tomorrow…Tomorrow…(music/guitar solo )
If I’m WRONG
If I’m right
Could we last through
One more fight, tomorrow?
If it rained,
would you hold me tight?
Would you laugh, if I cried?
So do you love me?
Do you love me not?
If you do will it ever stop?