Last night really sucked, I got into an argument with my mom's boyfriend who I can't stand. He got in my face and he even tried counting to three like he's my dad. The thing is it would be one thing if he raised me as a young boy and I had a shitty relationship with my father but that's not the case. I met my mom's boyfriend when I was 16 and I have a good relationship with my dad. He also hated the fact that we don't think he exists which is so lame. I was wrong on arguing on my part but so was he, If he was mature he would have walked away but I got to him, real nice. I called my best friend up and stayed at his house, and before I left I called my mom's boyfriend a douchebag. I got in my car and I was genuinely pissed because he got in my face and I thought he was gonna hit me. I kinda hoped he did but I didn't egg him on because that ain't right. I got to my friend's house and stayed there for the night. I then went home sat in my driveway in my car listening to music on ipod via my car stereo listening to bruce springsteen because my mom's boyfriend think's springsteen's an asshole and springsteen is a hero of mine. I will ignore him now and pretend he doesn't exist. I've been angry for a long time because he moved in without my mom discussing it with me and my sisters which may be selfish of me but I had to adjust my life to it and it was weird. even though the money situation is good, I just can't be bought. Money can't buy everything especially happiness. However to change the mood, I got asked out on a date by a nice girl so hopefully that goes well for me.
Ok, so. It is known that I can't stand the infomercial pitchmen. I hate Vince Offer of Shamwow and Slap Chop fame with a passion. I didn't like Billy Mays at all, thought he was crazy because he shouted at me in my living room via my TV, it upset me. So he passes away about 2 months or something, I still don't care. I adopt the mantle "I'm not gonna kiss his ass even though he died" so I kept that going until a couple weeks ago, I got out of the pool and I threw my Jeff Beck Shirt on, the one I got at the Jeff Beck gig, my shorts were still wet when I got out and my red shorts bled on to the light colored shirt and it looked like someone spilled fruit juice on my shirt. My mom got it out with Oxy Clean so I regret hating on Billy Mays but I still hate Vince Offer.
Not taking driver's ed when I hit 16. I also should have taken the offer up with my mom for her to pay half because offered to pay have of driver's ed. But I'm a stubborn little bitch. I don't have an ID that proves that I'm 18, so I got kicked out of the adult section at headlines. My friend jake still criticizes me, he says I'm gonna be a shitty driver but he's the one that swerves wayward to the right and says "did you see that unicorn?" I do practice driving and I try to be safe, so I just gotta study the manual and pay the 50 bucks to go through the state. Just a little mad at myself this morning, probably lack of good sleep.
BTW I got David Gilmour: Live in Gdansk. I'm only on the first song and I can honestly say this will be great. I'm a fan. The only thing that concerns me is the lack of "Wot's uh the deal?","Coming back to life", and "Wearing the inside out" written by the Late Richard Wright. But those are all on the royal albert hall dvd so I digest......
Well 2008 has 20 minutes left to it. So I think it is time I reflect on this past year. Let's do highlights within each month:
January:
Was in a play
February:
Got rejected from another play
March:
Got a new guitar
April:
My laundry room caught a fire from a rogue cigarette, so my place was uninhabitable
May:
Got an Ipod
June:
Saw Eric clapton
Finished my Junior Year of high school
and one of my favorite teachers retired
Also had a barbecue and the night before resulted in a drunken stupor and the following morning of the barbecue I had to take care of my friend who was puking.
July:
Just worked my ass off and went to a cemetery
August:
Moved out of my apartment into a nice house
Started my Senior year of high school
September:
My two friends started dating
Auditioned for a play didn't get in
October:
Saw Australian Pink Floyd
Got into the play that I didn't get into initially by taking place of a kid that quit and the understudy also quit so i was next in line
friend's started fighting
November:
Saw the first black president be elected
my friends fell apart
December:
Turned 18
So that was my 2008, alot of ups and downs. Hopefully 2009 will be the same but better. I am listening to echoes currently, because it will be the last song of 2008 and the first song of 2009. So hopefully everyone has a good time and is safe.
For the past while, I've liked this girl. I'd say about a year, and I haven't done anything about it. I had many oppurtunies to tell her, but I didn't. I still talk to her I sit with her during lunch in the school library, we don't really hang out much as friends outside of school so I think I am lingering on the brink of friend zone and not in the friend zone. The weird thing is though, I am a totally different person when I am with her. Not in a bad way though, I am more confident and less shy. I am very shy though, so in a way she brings out a lot of good in me. Why don't I ask her out? Well, she's taken right now. Or else apon this revelation I would do so in heartbeat now realizing that if I never ask than I may never know if she likes me. She's good about not being awkward about that stuff so I could save a friendship. I don't plan on stealing her from her boyfriend, because that isn't really cool. She is really cool though, and my heart brakes a million times when I think of her. That's why the blog is labelled "Bell Bottom Blues" because Eric Clapton wrote it for George Harrison's wife who he fell in love with, and it was on Derek and The Domino's "Layla and other assorted love songs" which is a fantastic album. But bell bottom blues is a song right now I can totally relate to. If you haven't listened to it, you should. So I just thought I needed to pour my heart out in a blog.
I don't usually write in blogs, let alone using the blog feature on Ultimate-guitar.com. I just need to get a lot of crap off my chest and no one I know in my personal life doesn't go on here so I won't be ostracized by anyone. This whole issue I'm about to mill about could make a great movie and if Edward Norton put on some weight he could totally play me. My best friend and I have known each other for about 5 years, I met him in Mid- September 2003 in my 7th grade computer class. We've been joined to the hip since then. You know we did everything together like playing countless video games, hanging out, being our nerdy little selves, and sharing our views of the world with each other. There is no way in hell we could ever argue or anything. So fast forward 5 years later, My best friend is dating another best friend of mine and I met her 3 years ago so still some years of credibility. They both liked each other, she dated this asshole kid for 2 years while my best friend dated this chick. A couple months ago we all start hanging out and they start going out. We were this cool little group of teenagers, life was good. Overall life was good, my date life has been plunged but I am into this girl but I can't express to her my true feelings so it's been tough. Near the end of October my two best friends started polarizing, and they got into some argument. They both dragged me into the middle of it because I am the middle man. For the first time in my life ever, it's the first time I didn't take my pal's side over the girl's. You know, I don't think it was fair for me to be thrown into the middle of this. I actually sympathized for her because he did start being a douche to her. They both came to my family's halloween party like two troopers, and they were ok with eachother. I had to prepare myself to kick them out just in case an argument ensued. Fortunately for this blogger, there was no argument. Unfortunately though, there was a lot of weird tension going on. At this time, I started sort of distancing myself from my best pal and doing my own thing, which was good for me because I needed alot of "Me" time. I really got to catch up with myself and try to figure stuff out for later so it was therapeutic for me. I didn't need this drama in my life, because I can't solve problems for anyone else but my own. When Election came around, my friend and our other friend showed up on Election day unannounced and that really irritated me. I had some money I wanted to spend and they just wanted to spend a nice day inside so they left and I hung out with my pal's girlfriend who was still confused about her relationship with my friend. We had a helpful talk about the whole thing, we went to a movie and than she dropped me off at home. When the end of the week hit, everyone asked me to go see a movie with them but I had a bad feeling what was going to happen. I decided to bow out of going to the movies with them. Before my friends went to the movies, my pal's girlfriend called me telling me she was going to break up with him. She did, and I did spend the day with my pal the next day going to an all you can eat chinese buffet and watching tv on a rainy day. I think thats all I can really tell from now, it's been quiet the past couple weeks and we had the big senior picture last week. It was cool cuz I sat next to my pal and the girl I am really into so it was like trying to get the metaphorical band back together and sitting next to the girl of my dreams. It's shitty that my best friends who I truly hold close to my heart had to split apart, and I think that is what is prompting me to write this blog. I just needed to vent.
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