I feel the need to check in on myself via this entry. Musically, I've been completely stagnant for the past 5-or-so months. This is because I had finished school in July, moved out of my place at school and into my parents' house as I searched for a job. As some of you may know, I need solitude, space, and lots of time to create music, and being in the same house as my troubled mother and ill father made it anything but comfortable for me to create. Recently, however, I have found employment, and a place of my own. It's an apartment, so it's still going to be hard for me to find a way to hoot and holler without disturbing (and frightening) others, but I should manage. I'm waiting until after the holidays to begin recording, as I'll be acquiring some much needed software come Christmas.
This 'life update' has multiple purposes. Primarily, the focus of this entry is on support. I want to thank those who have supported me so far and let everyone know that it makes a huge difference for me, in hopes that this acknowledgment will foster further support in the future. If you look at the top, you'll see that I made this note out to friends, not fans. This is an important distinction to make, as friends are those who I know personally, and although my music is amateur at best, still pretend to care. Fans are those with no personal connection to the artist (me), but are connected to the music, rather than the person behind it. I am well aware that I have zero fans. But I have a few important friends, and they need to be thanked. These are the names that currently come to mind.
-Dean (Ankou): As far as I can tell, the only person who legitimately enjoys my music. Even if it's just the booze talking, thanks for being such a gent and having fun pretending to dig it. -Steph (entity0009): There's a reason we've tried to work together on more than one occasion. There's also a reason why these endeavors have failed, and it's my fault. I love keeping up with your music, and really hope you get a recording setup worthy of your talent in the near future. Hurry up and get famous so you can make it over to the states! -Sigi (hollow1928years): Man, without your help, my music would sound like complete shit, as opposed to passable shit. I trust your opinion first and foremost with anything involving recording and production. Thanks for giving me advice and listening to my music when I need help! -ChucklesMginty: I can't remember your real name . Thanks for setting up the metal album and giving me not one, but two spots on it! The metal album really motivated me to get my shit together and write my first original song ever. I think you might even like my music, haha! -Ryan (CoreysMonster): As a complete stranger, came to me and asked me to work with you on some songs. The first person to ever instill the notion in me that I might actually have a shred of talent, which is huge considering the fact that I have the self-esteem of a folding chair. Regardless of whether or not anything we work on together will ever see the light of day, it's been such a beneficial experience for me. You're extremely talented as a musician, and your music has a permanent spot in the ever-changing list of artists on my ipod. -Merlene (ilikepirates): Thanks for being the only person I talk to on a daily basis. Because of you, I only feel 99% alone, as opposed to 100% alone, which is a big deal. Thanks for keeping UG friendly. you, e-wife! -Valerie (FreakAddiction): Thanks for singing on my Coheed cover. You have a beautiful voice and I'd love to have it on a song of mine in the future, if I can just write something that can do justice to your talent. -Phil (Zaphikh): Possibly the greatest mind on UG, and definitely one of the nicest and most funny fellows I've met on here. You definitely have a unique talent, and every time I see you've uploaded a new tune on my friends widget thing, I rush to grab my headphones. Every listen is a totally new experience.
-DreamToJam: I don't know you, per say, but the fact that you trust me enough to ask for recording and music advice really speaks to me. Thanks for your confidence. -UGTC people: Grace, Chris, Sam, Annabel, Desiree, Justin, Jon, Jordan, and Buddy...thanks for keeping me company for the past year. Talking with you guys really kept me (relatively) sane. My 'real life' acquaintances don't give two shits about my music. Seriously. So thanks for being better friends than anyone 'real' has ever been to me.
-Lurkers: Anyone else who I don't talk to, but has bothered to listen to a song or two, even the stupid ones. Hope you liked what you heard!
Alrighty, now that all the e-Christmas cards have been taken care of, it's time to move on to the next objective of this blogotext. I'd like to describe my ideas for the future. This part is important for me just to do for myself, but it's also crucial that I get any input I can from anyone else who reads this. Seriously. You guys are the only ones I do this for, currently, so I'd like to make you happy if I can.
I currently have two original songs lined up. Both are fairly fleshed out and ready to go, instrumentally. No vocals yet. Much more work needs to be done still.
The first is...well, I'll be honest, it's almost a complete In Flames ripoff (Soundtrack to your Escape-era). I don't have any idea what I'm going to do with it, lyrically and vocally. I don't have any themes or ideas or even words ready for it, but I think as soon as it has vocals on it, it'll be ready to go. I don't like it much, to be honest. It's extremely meh, imo.
The other song I do like quite a bit more. It's a pure melodeath thrash-fest. I love the riffs in it, and the bridge has a killer groove. I've written most of the lyrics for it, and know where they're going to go and how they're going to sound in the context of the song. My concern with this song is that it is much more appealing to myself than it is to any listener. I love modern takes on classic melodeath (see Dimension Zero), but it really is a niche market in terms of other listeners. I don't think many people will like it, but I really enjoy playing it. If you know what I'm talking about, what would you like to hear?
I think that's all for now. Basically, I just wanted to give thanks for the support I have had, let you all know that I love you dearly, and kind of open my metaphorical door for any thoughts from friends. So far, I'm not truly satisfied with anything I've done. I know I can make music that people will really be able to enjoy, but as of now, I've got nothing that fits that description. I need your help to make it happen. When it does happen, if it does, you'll all be very happy, I promise.