Favorite bands :
10 Years, AC/DC, AFI, The All-American Rejects, Arctic Monkeys, Audioslave, The Beatles, Bernard Fanning, Bleeding Through, Blink 182, Blur, Bright Eyes, Buckethead, Cat Stevens, The Clash, Coheed & Cambria, Counting Crows, Dashboard Confessional, Dave Matthews Band, Devin Townsend, Emery, Eighteen Visions, Eminem, Escape The Fate, Everything But The Girl, Five.Bolt.Main, Flaw, The Fray, Goldfinger, Good Charlotte, Incubus, In Flames, The John Butler Trio, Keane, The Killers, Kings Of Leon, The Kooks Lifehouse, The Mars Volta, Missy Higgins, Morrissey, Muse, My Chemical Romance, Name Taken, Opeth, Panic! At The Disco, Pink Floyd, The Police, Queen, Radiohead, Rise Against, Shinedown, SikTh, Slipknot, Soilwork, Sonata Arctica, Soundgarden, Sting, Stone Sour, Strapping Young Lad, Supergrass, System Of A Down, Tenacious D, Tool, The Used.
Favorite guitarists :
Can't say I really have one to be honest.
Favorite books :
The Green Mile, The Mind Game, The Lamplighter. I'm actually just listing books I've read. Sad, sad.
Favorite tv :
Family Guy, Everybody Loves Raymond, Futurama, South Park. Anything that makes me laugh really.
Favorite movies :
Movies aren't really my thing to be honest. I saw Juno recently though. Loved it. The girl who plays Juno is awesome.
So I guess it's time I put something meaningful in here.
I'm 15 turning 16 this year, and up until now I've never actually really had any experience where I've sorta been able to look back and say 'Hey, that really meant something and changed me'. I just get by, do what I have to do and not much more.
Well, exluding leisurely stuff. I'm one of those kids who listens to music almost constantly, and has to ask you to repeat things several times while he fumbles to turn his Ipod down or whatever.
I play guitar, admittedly not as avidly as I used to, I went from being obsessed [oh how we love that word] with guitar to focusing more on writing, which is something that I use to say things and open up in a way that no one really understands fully, and that's pretty special to me. Other than that I don't really do a whole lot.
I live through lyrics. When I can't understand how I feel I'll stumble across a song that epitomizes everything that's going through me.
I fall fast, and I fall hard. And then I struggle to get back up. I have strange nack for falling for girls who want nothing to do with me. I'd be proud of it if it were anything else, but because it generally leaves me feeling like shit I find it to be more of a burden than it's worth.
And for some reason I'm surrounded by people who are complete angels to me. People I barely deserve. I don't say it nearly enough but without the support of other people [as much as i hate to admit it] I'm liable to slip into some pretty rough patches. They know who they are, the people who help me. And you mean the world to me.
I'd like to say I know what love is, but I don't, and I'm probably the only teenager around who's never had a proper girlfriend. It doesn't bother me at all... if it's something worth waiting for I'll give you my life.
I like to think I'm pretty smart, even though I don't get the best grades around, but that's no one's fault but my own.
Uh, what else? I'm pretty distant and vague most of the time. I'm more of a loner than I like to admit, and I generally prefer the company of one or two people at most at one time, and I'm perfectly content being in my own company.
I don't like to throw around labels really, or build myself up to be something I'm not, but I think it's relatively safe to say I'm a deeper thinker than most people are.
I don't feel like I belong anywhere really. That's not some 'woe is me' thing, it's just the truth. I'm still looking for a place to fit in.
Oh, and to cap things off with some hollow and hypocritical advice; I've wasted the last two years of my life putting things off, and convincing myself that it's worth not trying or taking risks because then you don't get hurt. It's a lie though, you get hurt more in the end because you realise you've lost - or are about to lose everything you could possibly want and you've never even attempted to get it. I guess what I'm trying to say is just follow your heart... your mind does nothing but complicate things.
I'll probably edit something else in at some stage, or delete all this because it is incoherent drivel, but for now I'll leave it.
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