So my band just played its first gig... And I am now massively annoyed, because the assholes running it did everything they could to make it tough for us. It was open to students from only two schools, and we were the only ones representing our school, and it was hosted by the other town. There is a long standing rivalry. So first thing they do is make us play play first, at 6:25 when no one was there.
They knew this was our first gig, but we didnt get a sound check, but every other band did.
Then, they wouldnt let us use our 10 piece drum set, so we had to use a set with only one mounted tom and one floor tom, and their floortom was about an inch bigger than our mounted tom.
Their monitors were garbage, and we could only ever hear ourselves.
I was the only singer on key too, even if they couldn't hear me half the time because I had no idea how sensitive the mic was. My voice was shot from 4 days of straight practice and screaming, which they knew because we only joined 4 days before the gig BUT WE SAVED THE GIG. They could at least show some gratitude.
The bands that got first and second place were massively rigged against us. The band that got first got two sound checks (despite the fact they had played there before), and we had to use all of their amps and drums. When the band that got second came onstage, the announcer spent about 5 minutes riling up the crowd and talking to them while they set up (they got a 5 out of 5 for stage presence thnks to this).
We got 1 out of 5 for stage presence because we (unlike everyone else) played for 18 minutes out of our 20 minute time slot instead of talking to the crowd.
AND: we were the only band with any testicles there. One of the comments on the judgement pages was: lead singer (me) needs to get a haircut or a hair tie... we got 6th place out of 6. I bitched. Cool.
Alright, I'm going to randomly throw out some random truths according to me:
The truth is mutable most of the time. There are no absolute truths, because we never now enough. However, there are absolute truths based on what we can know, although these too are mutable. 2+2=5
Humans are animals, and by not being beasts, are weaker. For a person to truly be the best they can, they must be able to shift from savageness to civility, and must be able to combine them seamlessly, savaging people with their words and outthinking their opponents in combat. If one has to be chosen, since humans are inherently greedy, and since America, greediest of them all, is in power, beastiality should be chosen, to eliminate the weak, both personally, and those who cannot make powerful friends. We must return to Tyler Durden's world.
All evil, all problems, an be traced back to greed. Without greed, we can already have reached a utopia. This is not idiotic idealistic spewing, I have discussed and thought this through with a number of intelligent people.
You are not special. I am not special. You are not beautiful, you are not unique. I am not a beautiful or unique snowflake. That being said, we are both infinitely powerful, and my superiority to yours makes me worse than you.
Most emotions are simply a waste of time. Anger is useless, ad only makes you lose rationality. Grief is only detrimental, with legitemate threats to your health, and it paralyzes you. Joy and apathy are the only necessary emotions, with no detrimental sides to them. Anger and sadness are for those with no control, wh need certain motivations, or demotivations, which can be voluntarily brought up once someone understands themselves better.
Love is flawed, a biological instrument to improve offspring survival, which we have preverted and changed into a conscious emotion, which blinds us to flaws and makes us act irrationally, weakening us as individuals. I do not say it doesnt exist, but it is flawed.
God is a concept for those who are cowards, unwilling to accept responsibility for their actions or flaws, and who fear death. They are told that there is an eternity of god for them if they believe, so they waste the life they KNOW they have because it is finite, in the feeble hope that they won't suffer an eternity of pain.
Each person can be their own god, motivating themselves, pardoning themselves, and shaping their reality. You only truly have yourself to rely on, and while I am not saying I shun everyone's company (no, indeed, I do the opposite), I know that I can be my own company, my own god, my own power base.
Humans are generally very similer. Develop a formula for their manipulation, and change a coefficient here, add a variable here, and you can use anyone.
Seriously, what the hell is the point of a blog? How does one work? Why am I asking in a blog if I don't know what it is to be used for? I am quite confused.
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