You know when you wake up in the morning, and you get that feeling that you have something important to do that day?
I really need to go and see him, it's been so fucking long, and I've missed him a lot. But, as I sit here writing this, I know that everything is going to be OK. Everything will get sorted out, and things will go back to normal.
Everything will be fine.
Except...except they won't. They won't go back to normal at all. Too many things have changed, and too much is different. I mean sure, if I could wave a magic fucking wand and make everything cool again, I probably...no...DEFINITELY would. To bring everything to a standstill, only to be the one to make it run properly again, smoother and better than before. Wouldn't that be cool? Wouldn't that make everyone so much happier?
Life isn't a fairytale. It doesn't improve just because you want it to. You have to work for the things you want in this life, and if you happen to get something you want for free; CHERISH IT. It'll probably be one of the very few things that you get handed to you for nothing.
Sure, they say all the best things in life are free, and yeah, to a point they are. But it's the little things that nobody takes notice of, the seemingly insignificant stuff that you take for granted. THAT's the stuff that keeps this whole charade together. These are the things that ensure smooth running of life and all who ride within her confines.
At the end of the day, you only get one family, one set of real friends. Your life however, is short. And it is unimportant. And it is going to seem like nothing really changes.
But it does. It all changes, several times and not always for the better.
He would have been 29 this year.
R.I.P Danny. I miss you.