Ok, how many times in life can one start over? lol.
I've completely scraped the concept of learning any more music theory.
I've been trying to find an "end" through learning the means to the end, instead of the "end" itself ("a means to an end")... and I am not going anywhere. So now I'm going to start something different:
I'm learning pieces of music and songs, and that's all I'm going to work on for many more months to come (besides looking for a job that is, lmao).