Ugh..I guess there's no good way to start this blog.
A guess i could start by point something out about myself.
Being myself, i don't really get drama. It usually all bundles up, get's together and all get's me at one point in the year, Yeah. A years worth of bullshit hitting me in just a few days. Well, yesterday was the first day in what so far will probably be the worst time of my life.
Lately it's all been cruel anxiety, worries about school, report cards, how my parents will react to the report card, my father's threats to kill someone i know, someone i know announced she like me over the internet which was extremely awkward, and 2 good friends went missing.
i can keep going, but i wanna keep this thing moving.
Last night, i realised all the shit that's happening to me. Last night i had a panic attack. soon afteri started feeling sick i've been taking alot of advil. Doesn't seem to be working at all.
It's never gotten this bad before, and i feel as if i'm losing my inspiration to play music. I've been extremely depressed, and it's not going away. I feel as if it's going to stay like this forever. What else can i do to take away the depression? I've gotten lots of sleep, i've tried to play music, taken lots of advil, surrounded myself with good friends. Nothing seems to be working.
I'm starting to scare myself a bit. I need ways to help relieve myself. What can i do?
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