HearItInMyHead

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Troubling thoughts plant themselves like weeds
Where’s the time gone
Have I been asleep
How do you hold a moment
Hold on make it last
In a place for free spirits who are
Caught in a currency trap
Baby I reached in a hole
Something shiny, I grabbed hold and
Now it’s just so...
I picked it up but I can’t get my fist out
And I can’t let go
When nothing is worth holding on to
Nothing but my time with you
When nothing is worth holding on to
Nothing but my time with you
When nothing is worth holding on to
Nothing but my time with you, you, you

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And I would like to believe you
If all was said but your
Free will is stronger than my promises
And you're not hurting me
Any more than you're willing to see
Do you remember as children - hearts would mend but
Each day is a little bit quicker and now things end
In your absence they chose me
To bury dead feelings under my words
And never speak so freely
So block your eyes and cover the sun
If it's far too bright
I'm not hangin' round for just anyone
But for you I might
I'll have one reason to stay and spend this time again
Until you're with me when it rains
You'll run away and then
Where could you be my friend
Another beginning another end
How could you wait so long
Just to tell me you were gone
So if your tears go wasted and fall untouched
You'll know I'm opposite where you are hurting just as much
Now wake your eyes and come undone
If it takes all night
I've not grown fond of just anyone
But with you it's all right
Don't ask me again to stay and spend this time with you
When you know damn well I'm here till the end
Like it's all brand new
My thoughts are not pretend
I will watch for you when I can
But if we wait some day
Our time will have worn away
Then what could we say

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Right as rain
I'm so free
No one's screaming
This room is empty
I'm never going back home
I'm far too satisfied
Being alone
The days come and the days go
I have all these sketched memories
To show no one
How will you know if I'm safe and warm
When I'm not there under you arm
This world hates me and it drags me down
Sometimes all I want is for a friend to be around
But no one ever came when I cried
No one ever could hear a lonely sigh
So now you know what it's like on your own
When the silence you sit in makes you look home
But then you realize all the reasons you left there
Because no one understood and no one seemed to care
Go away again leave it all behind
It's the only way to hurt them all at the same time
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I've been away so long I don't even know why
I pushed you out of my life now
I'm empty inside
So when will you go and
Forgive you own blood
After all these years you would think they've had enough
It's not their judgment but
It's your own selfish pride
That makes you feel hopeless
And keeps you awake at night
So I'm going home
Where I'll put down this load
And smile hello

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You say to me, What you doin tomorrow?
Thinking deeply I reply, Spending time I've borrowed
Ignoring your puzzled expression I turn
But wait, you cry
Won't you stay around a minute
So I can gaze into your eyes
See the sun rise
See through my disguise
Look deeper child
I'm lonely too, she smiled
So you want to know me
Get inside my head
Now half of me wants to embrace you
I forget what that's like, she said
So many things go wrong
And I spend so much time by myself
Now can I sing you a song about
How I wish we were somewhere else
I don't know why
But life feels so dry
Can you take me
Away from this misery
If I run, run away
Would you come with me
Would you wake me from a dream just to say to me
I wish you were mine
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See the bright side
See the darkness I hide
I'm fascinated
I'll never leave you' she said
Oh now it seems so long ago
Just a memory
When I'm waking from a dream
Thinking you're next to me
I wish you were mine

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Thought it over a thousand hours
Wanted to tell you but you left and anyway...
What would I say?
What cannot be explained
It was it lifetimes ago................
Wide awake and I'm just waiting for dawn
Cause maybe tomorrow is better than this one
What can I say?
Feels like yesterday
Was it lifetimes ago?................
I've been told all the quick-fix advise
In the world
And I still don't feel right
Everyone's "good intentions"
Why are there so many fakes?
Need to rearrange

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Sittin on half a day and I'm
Thinkin that I'm not too far
Feelin those hunger pains and I'm
Bleedin out another scar
Make my living, one foot at a time
Create my music, record and rewind
Really no decision to make
If I could choose just one I'd trade
Any day
And I wouldn't look the other way
As soon as life complicates
It's important to know who you are
Only one definite and she's riding shotgun in my car
Emotions and the notes might flow like wine
But inspiration is an unfinished line
Really no music to write
Until my mind's got perfect sight
I'm aware
Sittin' on half a dime and I'm
Thinkin' that I spent too much
Feelin' like a hurricane that
Never ever came undone
A feeling on the back of my neck
A chill when I think about what a wreck I'm in
I AM THE ONE THAT IS MINE
THE ONE THAT IS MINE

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You say this may be a good time to look for something meaningful
Maybe but it may be too late, for you and they will burn
Sick of all these bullshit trains
And undefined head games
From these circles I abstain
Feel so high why can't you free
This underlying hell within me
Look around they know your name
When you take them down they're all the same
So stop your holy whining and your need to feel ashamed
You spent your whole life waiting for a day that never came
No one is here for you and you start to cry
For now you see what matters but a lifetime has passed you by
You take this day to pray with everyone you're always following
It's just too hard to keep God in your heart on your own
Broken text you're choking on
Heaven bound automaton
Bent on cleansing every shadow
Holier than all mankind
Weakest of the world you find
Fear is the only seed you need to sow
So climb your fucking crosses and
Look down down as you ascend
You spent your whole life waiting for this day but in the end
No one could tell you just
How to live your life
But you always let them and so it was a lie
Within you, within your mind
A million ways to wait for a sign
No one can lead you astray
And no one can change you

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Discontented is what you are
Malediction is what we have become
Why you bring the hell out of me
You must get off on provocation
Blackness our souls are stained
Red now I see your face
Screaming until you go down
Deep inside reaching my creatures I once could hide
Here are your demons now
Disconnected must be our steps
Malefic journey comes to an end
Stomach bile festering while
You spend your time on vindication
Leaving I can't let this happen
You keep coming
Splinters and cracks forming
Anger you keep pouring
Building I won't let you
Building I won't let you break me

Down when awake
Sleep we escape
How could it go this far
I don't know who you are
Trying to reason with
Something I should have been

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The ones we look to would have us stop questioning
And sight the "enemy" in
Fire when ready men
The blood is on our hands
If I ever thought this was the way to win
I can't remember when
Is this your means to an end?
Keep control of them
Keep them hungering
Weak and suffering
All we can bring is pain
You must seek a solution
You must be disillusioned
If a man can't make
Important decisions
What good is conscience
Define resolution
We defy revolution
Invite ignorance
A cancer that spreads like shit
Through veins of complaisance

You must seek a solution
You must be disillusioned
Maybe war is a trend
What if it never ends
We weren't born to hold weapons
We could never comprehend
Just being friends
You must seek a solution
You must be disillusioned
You must seek a solution
You must be disillusioned