I don't know why I hate it so much, but even just having an account makes me uneasy. It's not even the security, it just feels weird. Unfortunately, it's the best way to keep in touch with friends for the summer, so I kinda have to. I'm afraid to even add any friends at this point since chances are I'll end up deleting it. I do have a question though:
Why does everyone have so many friends on there? There is no way you know all those 500+ people on your list and even if you've met them, you probably never talk to them anyway. So why? Why have 500 friends on there when you only send messages to the close ones, that you actually know? I know I'll feel like a dumbass if I don't do the same thing, but really. I only want to have actual friends on my friends list. Is that so wrong? And do any of you feel the same? It just seems weird to me.
So basically I'm hugely paranoid about being on Facebook, only instead of it being about privacy, I think I'm just too damn crazy. Or maybe old-fashioned? In a bad way?
So this week was massively boring. I was supposed to go to a movie with a bunch of friends, and maybe ask out the girl while I was there, but no one told me when it actually was, even though they were talking about it with me and said they would keep me filled in. Now that I think about it, it was probably on Facebook, but you guys know how I feel about that. Not to mention one of them (the girl) had my phone number and email address, so she could have got to me if she wanted to. I sometimes wonder if any of them actually give a fuck about me or if they just put up with me while I'm around. So, since I don't have any of their addresses, emails, or phone numbers(see previous sentence), I was basically stuck here all week with nothing to do. I'm actually looking forward to getting back to school so I have something to do. Plus I actually kind of like school this semester. Hopefully I won't feel so shitty once I'm back to actually having a routine.
So, since you're reading this anyway, how was your march break?
My city is running a competition-type thing for young artists where you can submit a short story, poem, or art(painting, drawing, etc.) So basically all I have to is write a short story of under 2,000 words and submit it to my library, and they might publish me. There's no money involved if I understand correctly, but this is still a pretty great opportunity even if I don't win(I know I won't). I have about 3 and a half weeks to do this, so I'll report back around then. April 11, to be exact. Wish me luck!
Also, for those of you reading, what do you think I should write about?
Inspired by a post in the Hugging Thread. I've been thinking, and it seems as though being a good person is not enough in today's society. Without common courtesy, and niceness, a person could get nowhere, or close to it, but these factors seem to have become less important lately. I also understand the need for people to be assertive, but it seems like if you aren't extremely so, you won't be going anywhere successful. Even minor considerate acts such as holding the door for someone, or letting a senior take your seat on a bus, are so uncommon that I am often met with equal parts gratitude AND surprise.
My question to you: Is this just me, or is it really that our society is becoming less and less concerned with modesty, politeness, etc? (it's probably just me)
I used to have facebook, and it was all okay for the most part, but then I deleted it. No problem, right? The problem is all of my friends use facebook and are on a lot. So basically my aversion to facebook is causing me to not know when things are happening, and all that, so stuff will happen without me even knowing, when I could easily be a part if I just gave into the facebook craze.
But I seriously don't want to. I want to keep in touch with friends better, obviously, but I have some serious problem with joining facebook. It's really bothering me actually. I don't know if it's because I'm subconsciously worried about security with identity, or if I'm afraid I'll get obsessed like some people I know, or something else, but I actually Can't bring myself to do this. It's really pissing me off now. I understand how stupid it sounds, but it's driving me insane. It's like I have a phobia or something. Advice? Maybe I'll just get everyone's e-mail addresses and MSN, or something as long as it isn't facebook.
So I applied for a job at McDonald's after a friend mentioned they were doing a mass hiring, so I signed up, since apparently it's actually a great place to work. I applied, but I haven't got called yet(apparently you get a call even if they don't want you). So until then, I'm going on the hunt. I'm basically just gonna go to every store I can and see who's hiring and go from there. The obvious choice is retail, so I'll probably go to the mall and just ask every store if they're hiring. Any suggestions on good places are also welcome
So I now have seven days and nothing to do. I had company on the weekend, which was great, but that was about it for plans. I was supposed to go see a movie with a ton of friends, but they seem to have neglected to tell me which playing they're going to. I know the day, but I'm not just going to wait there for them and hope they don't go to the midnight playing or some stupid shit like that. I might be going to my uncle's house since his dog died and he's tore up about it, since he already had some Empty Nest issues after my Grandmother died. So basically, the only plans I've got are to maybe go to see him, which would be good I admit, or to hope that someone fills me in on when we can see the movie.
Looks like a long week of nothing. I guess I could start by figuring out what the fuck I'm supposed to do for a week. Maybe keep up writing Aces High. Suggestions are also awesome.
Damn letter caps! They could at least tell me when
The full title of the other blog is actually 'Jokingly implying that someone looks ilke/is a rapist isn't funny.' They should make the limit like 150 characters or something. I know this is kind of a waste of a blog, but that's what these are for, right?
Jokingly Implying That Someone Looks Like/Is A Rap
Current mood: enraged
Backstory: Some girl I go to school with, who always seems to be high, and is always striving for that 'random girl' image, has recently been raving about how I look like a vampire(I wear a trenchcoat, wear black, and have long hair, which apparently=vampire in some people's eyes.) Anyway, that isn't too much of a problem, she's a nice girl and all that so I just take it with a grain of salt.
Lately people have decided to start asking me about why she refers to me as a vampire. Some people just accept it, and it seems to have stuck with most people. That's fine with me. Today, another girl(not the one who started the vampire thing.) also asked me about it. I explained to her that it was because of the trench coat. She replied, and I quote:"I would just call you a raper." Maybe I'm exaggerating the problem, but I have limits; about what I will say to/about people AND what I will allow people to say to me. Being referred to as a rapist, the fucking scum of the earth far exceeds those boundaries. I don't give a fuck if you were joking or you didn't mean it or if it just slipped off your tongue or whatever excuse I am bound to hear if I bring it up again. There are certain things you don't say, especially when you're talking to someone's face.
The fact that I actually have a thing for this girl makes it all the more offensive and frustrating. That thing may be dead soon, but for now, I'm not as much worried about that, I'm just fucking pissed that she would say that. Am I over-reacting to this?
Moral of the story: Never call someone a rapist. Just fucking don't.
I got my braces in a couple hours ago and it already sucks. No more gum, no more anything crunchy OR chewy, no candy AT ALL no carbonated drinks or juice without brushing teeth immediately after(I refuse to brush my teeth in filthy school washrooms), eating anything is painful, and they look awful. The next couple years were shaping up to be miserable anyway, but now I can't even have my chewing gum