Fuzzbox91

1)someone who i looked up to, who i think is multi talented and actually a smart guy resorts to the lowest, most played out religous bullshit ever, 

2)as a man who promotes black power, racial equality, and fighting racism, to see him result to anti semetism just makes me sick, he protests against racism against his own people just so he can turn around and push around an ethnicity smaller than his own??? Im still wondering what he meant by these lyrics, it could be nothing, but as a guy who is really sensitive towards racism against blacks, youd think hed be a bit more sensitive towards other minorities.  hypocricy just downright pisses me off. i found out hes religious which explains a lot, its amazing how christianity and islam (i hate them both) can take something or someone so rational and twist their mind to be a typical bigoted sheep. ill still listen

 to his music either way. but that got me thinking, why does this stuff get me so angry, why do i still identify myself as a jew anyway, im agnostic, i hate what religion has done to our world, if judiasm were as big and widespread as christianity or islam id probably hate it too. but i figured it out, when i see the jews i see a people who are hated by the entire world for not much of a good reason at all, they are a scapegoat for everyone, this further fuels my hate for mankind, but also, id almost feel like id be abandoning them if i didnt call myself a jew and agree to take all the shit that i get from day to day for being that.  i swear sometimes i just want to go back to judiasm start a group that just patrols around new york city with M16A1s and just blows the shit out of all the pussy ass anti semetic or racist dickeheads who think they are all high and mighty, wed have a slogan like "if your a racist dickhead, youll take one in the forhead"  idk, thats a bit extreme but its a violent fantasy of mine.  i hate racsim of all kinds, i especially hate hypocricy, when you combine the two i want to blow something up.

the political rant aside, this year fucking sucked!!! but it wasnt as bad as last year or the year before that, im a bit better off. at this point i know what i have to do to not be miserable, i just need to do it, hopefully thats where this year will come in. so i guess heres my new years resolutions.

Get better at guitar, a lot better

Get a girlfriend

get some friends*

gain some better social skills

not be so paranoid

restart martial arts **

*my definition of friends is someone i can count on most of the time, not all the time, thats impossible, just most of it, thats not too much to ask, but around where i live it seems it is

**i used to take itwhen i was like 7, i was a green belt i think, then i quit, and restarted when i was 14 and got to orange belt but quit because i was doing sports, i really want to restart, im in better shape now and i really want to be able to beat the shit out of people who fuck with me.

TL DR!!:: skip the second paragraph, its  a political rant