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Thursday, June 09, 2011


Current mood: grateful

Just a few extracts and quotes which Im finding are....applicable...


Ascribed to St. Bernard of Clairvaus



Verse 2


How art thou pale with anguish,

with sore abuse and scorn;

How does this visage languish,

Which once was bright as morn!

Thy grief and bitter passion

Were all for sinners' gain;

Mine, mine was the transgression

But thine the deadly pain.


Thanks so much for what you did… not only did you go through excruciating pain and torture but you forfeited the most perfect relationship in the Universe. A relationship with your own dad. And you had done nothing wrong… you died because I had done wrong. And although I cannot fathom, help me to understand and never forget… help me, because though I know you did this I still reject you day after day, because I would prefer the Created to the Creator. But thanks so much…



"Unless I am convinced by Scripture and plain reason - I do not accept the authority of Popes and councils, for they have contradicted each other - my conscience is captive of the Word of God. I cannot and I will not recant anything for to go against conscience is neither right nor safe. God help me. Amen."          - Martin Luther


"My Lord was pleased to die for my sins; why should I not be glad  to give up my poor life out of love for him?"           - Girolamo Savonarola


"Do your worst - I am a Christian. Christ is my help and supporter, and thus armed I will never serve your gods nor do I fear your authority or that of your master, the Emperor. Commence your torments as soon as you please, and make use of every means that your malignancy can invent, and you shall find in the end that I am not to be shaken from my resolution." - Andronicus, Roman Empire


"He is no fool who gives what he cannot keep to gain what he cannot lose." - Jim Elliot


John Denley, England 1555

"Because of his faith, John was sent to the stake to be burned. When the wood beneath him was lit, Denley showed no fear. He cheerfully sang a psalm as the flames rose around him. One of his tormentors picked up a piece of wood and threw it at him, hitting him in the face. He hoped to anger or silence Denley, but Denley only responded, "Truly, you have spoiled a good old song." Then he spread his arms and continued to sing until he died."


Lord, help us not forget those persecuted and martyred for you…. I pray that you'd give them strength in what they do, as they seal what they taught with their lips with their own blood… I thankyou so much for them. I pray that, though I knew we will be persecuted, you would give us the courage to stand up for what we really believe. Help us not to buckle under pressure. Thanks that I have the freedom to speak and gather for fellowship. Amen


In manus tuas

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Tuesday, May 31, 2011


Current mood: grateful

I am an alien.

I am not of this World,

nor do I call it "Home"

My Desires are not for Earthly things

That will Fade, Corrode or Burn.

I set my Heart and Mind

on Things Above.

My faith and hope are in God Alone

And I eagerly await

His return for me.


1 Peter 2:11

Col 3:1-3

1 John 2:15-17

1 Thes 4:17

Php 3:20



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Sunday, May 15, 2011


Current mood: wonder

Hard truths. Impossible truths. Biblical truths.
The hardest thing about being a christian (to me) is facing the truth. Some of the things in life I am genuinly scared of. Because being a christian i have to accept, acknowledge and finally DO SOMETHING about these truths.
And some of them seem genuinly unfair.
(which is why it is so hard to see God as righteous and justice-enforcing... it takes perserverence and faith)
These truths can be personal or selfless.
Truths like accepting that most of my friends and people I love will eventually die... but for the moment are also spiritually dead. That because they do not know the abounding love of God... they are not saved by it.
Truths like knowing that the bible says that God planned all that. Jesus continuously says: 'those of you with ears, let them hear.' Because theres some people out there whose hearts have been hardened by God. There are people who find even the slightest utterence of Christianity offensive, 'Bible Bashing' and shoving stuff down peoples throats. (Note: I admit this happens way too often. But thats another post) God tells us that there are people who will never have a chance. And to me that doesnt seem fair.
Truths that something I love or think is cool is actually wrong. Things that I know are wrong that I don't want to give up... 'Oh God, I have given you every other part of my life...every other sin. Just let me have this thing, its only small...' And God despises that thing....
Truths like 'those who exalt themselves will be humbled, and those who humble themselves will be exalted'. It just seems unfair when people knowingly abuse God and still are successful in life, even moreso that me (not to much of a problem in my case)
Truths like 'God will make the sun rise on both good and bad men'. Why... Father...
Truths like women are inferior to men (still not sure). Like Sin is in our nature and God created us this way.
And probobly above all, the truth: 'there is no greater or lesser sin'. God sees all sin on the same level.... a lie is as bad as murder. As long as you have sinned, you have no place with God.
Its like if you have a can of coke... you would gladly take it for free. But what If you saw me put something gross in there... lets say a drop of urine. Just one drop. In a whole can. (Most of us) would not drink it. Its just... gross.
Or for a more mature example: Sin is like a small square of paper. To us some are thicker than others. When we sin, each piece is stacked on top of eachother. If we tell a couple of hundred lies that is the thickness equivalent to adultery etc. We compare our stacks with others: ie. Not as tall as Hitler, but not as small as Mother Teresa... surely God thinks thats okay, its not as if ive done blah.
But God sees things differently. He is holy and righteous... and He looks down from above. And all he sees is whether of not you have a piece of paper. If not, He can see the ground and you are righteous. But even the thinnest piece of paper is visible to God. And he detests it.
Its all the same. Its so hard to get out of the mindset of 'greater or lesser sins'.
And yet a harder truth that sustains all: through all of this, all our impurities and doubts and secret pleasures and pieces of paper and greed and lust and pride...
God, the creator of THE universe and all beyond that, the being who breathed out stars bigger than we can comprehend, who merely spoke and every fibre obeyed his will, who is infinite and ever lasting and awesome... He knows all that I am going through, and most of all, He loves me still. Despite.
And its sometimes hard to grasp how amazing Jesus' acts were... He was God in the flesh. So when his back was whipped and torn and he was mocked and people gambled for his stuff infront of him... when each muscle was sliced and lay open and quivering, when a crown of 2 inch thorns was forced down over his eyes, when a purple robe was thrown across his bleeding shoulders only to have been torn off again... when the Roman soldiers spat on his face! This is GOD IN THE FLESH! His very being  sustains all that is! He controls, sustains and created the very pores and muscles and sinews that were needed for each man to work up saliva in his mouth, the physics that allowed them to spit it onto his face... he was god in the flesh. And he loved us so much... that in that moment not only did he suffer that excrusiating pain and humiliation, he destroyed a PERFECT relationship with his Father.
His love, above all, I cannot comprehend. More than the hard truths... it is just frankly awesome.
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Sunday, May 15, 2011


Current mood: grateful

So. I have wanted an electric guitar for a while now (since it has better tonality and my acoustic is, lets face it, as bad as they come) which also means i need an amp.
But i don't want to buy those cheap starter kits for $200...
The only problem is i dont have much cash to blow since i dont have a paying job...
So i have decided to probobly buy the usual... a Fender Strat... this is apparently a Squire Standard 'special edition' (?) which they are selling for $400 AUD. (about the same as USD at the mo)
Hmm. I have access to a pretty good amp at a friends, so for home i only wanted something small and cheap that could still do stuff. Settled on a VOX DA5 for $175...
Thats what I got so far. Until i get some steady income I probobly wont invest in anything better.
Any protests or suggestions are welcome. As is charity :D!
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