Fuck. There are no good bands in New Jersey anymore. You wanna know
why? Because they all broke up, in 2005. Fuck that. I remember I would
always check into purevolume and listen to my favorite Stafford and
Madison songs. Hell I would even listen to Ogelthorpe and Obnoticus
from time to time. Either way the New Jersey music scene isn’t what it
used to be. I know this is kind of weird, coming from a kid who hadn’t
attended local shows regularly until 2006, but shows these days are
boring.
You wanna know a typical New Jersey show today? All the
kids look bored as hell, and don’t even listen to the music. They sit
their with their fucking sidekicks and text their little scene friends
all night. And then they come outside and bitch about how they have no
cigarettes. When a couple years ago, I’ll bet kids would be jumping
around, singing along to the lyrics, and having a great time.
If you’re reading this you’re either one of two people. 1) a current show-go-er 2) a former show-go-er
If you’re 1, you probably are a fat 14-16 year old girl, who loves Mayday Parade. If
you’re 2, you probably used to love to go to shows, but now you’re a
drug addict who enjoys watching sports, and play beer pong on the
weekends in your underwear, piss drunk.
Actually, when you think
about it, the scene has been on a downward trend since the day it got
started. First, it was nice and emo, with cool kids in their sisters
jeans. Then, the cool thing was hardcore, and to start acting like a
dick to everyone in your camo shorts, and the little scene girls
sporting their 12 different colored hair. But oh no! Now hardcore isn’t
hard enuff for the hardcore bands, so now they’re DEATH METALZLAL!!!,
complete with shitty vocals, crappy downtuned guitars, and fucking
piccalo snares. ALL YOUR SONGS SOUND THE SAME. SHITTY. YOU DON’T PLAY
MUSIC, AND YOUR SHOWS ARE JUST WAYS FOR GUYS TO GET OUT THEIR FUCKING
MALE AGGRESSION.
Either way, the scene is going to hell, and
will continue to do so, until. Don’t try to get your shitty generic
band to "Get the scene back, man! Yeah!" because quite frankly, no one
likes your crappy powerpop music, except for maybe the fat 14-16 year
old girls who like Mayday Parade.
I've just realized today, that I'm always worrying. People see me as
the funny guy, always making jokes and screwing around, but honestly I
spend most of my time worrying. Worrying about something little,
something stupid, that quite frankly isn't worth worrying about. Then
there are big things that I will lose sleep over. Today was one of
those days. I kept thinking about death. My own, my loved ones, my
future wife, my future kids. I was thinking about how I probably
couldn't go on if I lost my mom or my dad. I was thinking, what if
there is no Heaven or Hell? What will happen to my loved ones when they
pass away? It's hard to deal with the fact that there may be no eternal
bliss, and that your mom or dad may just be sitting in the ground for
all eternity. It makes my eyes watery, and now I know what they mean
when they say "a lump in your throat". Then theres the approach that
there are Heaven and Hell,
and if you're good you go to Heaven, and if not, you burn in Hell for
an eternity. How does someone live with themselves knowing that their
grandma may be suffering in a lake of fire for an eternity?
But
thats just me being worried about death. I worry about the life that
I'm going to lead. I worry that I won't know what to do when I'm older.
Should I be a starving musician, poor but doing what I love? Or should
I be an accountant, rich yet hating having to wake up in the morning?
Then
there's love. I don't know how to describe myself in this aspect of
life. I suppose "codependent" would be the best word. I need to be
around people. More specifically I need a girl in my life. Whenever I
have a girlfriend I feel like I'm the happiest I've been in my entire
life. Then when she breaks up with me my whole world falls apart.
Sometimes I feel as if I don't have a girl in my life, I may be alone
forever. Then I may end up marrying the first girl who lays me and I'll
be miserable my entire life. It really sucks, to say the least.
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