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Sunday, October 05, 2008

that someone?

Current mood: depressed

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Lately i've lost a lot of friends...i spend a lot of my time working and focusing on school because last year i did bad....i have one really good friend but i lost some best friends and i feel like shit. i don't smoke, drink, or do drugs. everyone else, EVERYONE else in my town does. no one wants to hang out with me on the weekends because thats all they do. i feel like i'm not having fun, just because i'm staying healthy.
i just want someone to care about. i haven't had a good relationship in a while... i want someone to love. I feel pathetic. I don't feel pretty. I did something yesterday  I shouldn't have. I panicked because I thought something terrible was going to happen. I can't do that again...but I know I will at some point.
I don't even care if i met someone who i would never meet in person in my life. I want to feel needed to someone...This might sound stupid but I feel useless. :(
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Malos wrote on Oct 5th, 2008 5:08pm

Hey, don't feel useless! I know pretty much how you feel, cause I'm kinda in the same situation myself. Or well... ah, its' a lot to explain here, but... just try not to think bad of yourself like that, okay? PM me if you want and we could talk! :)
Nice playing/singing in you video btw!


metaldud536 wrote on Oct 8th, 2008 11:05pm

I know this feeling. I've had it for quite a while. But you have plenty of time to find good friends and such. And remember, that you don't need relationships to enjoy life.


-tempest- wrote on Oct 15th, 2008 2:49am

colleen I care about you. I'm no anything close to dateable or whatever but if you ever feel bad I'm always here for ya. Your not pathetic btw so don't even say that! I'm the one who couldn't find love if it stared me in the fuckin face, so don't beat your self up ok bud :)


brian_s wrote on Nov 30th, 2008 3:11pm

Feeling unwanted and useless? I know that feeling. BOY DO I KNOW THAT FEELING! It's horrible. At some point during this may I fell into a depression. And since the root of the problem was something that has been bugging me my whole life, i couldn't get out of it just like that. I seriously wanted to die, I couldn't take it anymore. Well I snapped out of it in a matter of a day (I landed a spot in my friends band, and that took my mind of things). But the problem didn't go away, it just stepped aside at least for a while.

Mid september I met this girl. Well, I already knew her, I just met her in a different light. I'm very very VERY happy now. If I had killed myself 6 months ago, like I wanted to. I would have never met her.
What I'm tryin' to say is. Whatever you do, never give up.
I've found someone to adore. I'm sure you'll find someone who'll adore you. You deserve it.



damnphrophet wrote on Dec 28th, 2008 3:27am

Let me say something,
you're a Great person for not doing what all the people you know do.
Staying helathy, having fun?
You are building a life!
I tell you that you will find the one you look for,
cos' you really deserve it,
and yeah as you said, you can meet someone that will never meet in person,
but what the hell, the internet is for such things, or not? :D
maybe i live a lot of miles away of you, but we have internet :)
I understand you, i felt like that 2 years ago,
but then, everything went great,
PM me if you want , maybe , we can learn things frome each other :D


Just_Matt wrote on Jan 25th, 2009 2:08am

Been there, I still sometimes get the feeling.
Dont feel bad for not doing what everyone else does, specially if thats doing drugs.
I dont quite know you, but Im quite sure you are not pathetic, it just takes to watch your vid to see that you have got talent, and believe me you are pretty.

If you ever want to talk, PM me or leave a comment.


HouseBoy83 wrote on Mar 15th, 2009 4:13pm

i know how you feel about "needing someone"...i always fall for the wrong ones.


DarkZidane92 wrote on Apr 14th, 2009 11:17pm

I feel your pain had that happen to and your beautiful


Pencil Man wrote on May 29th, 2009 3:46am

Listen to Pink Floyd,maybe The Wall, garanteed to make you feel better.


HouseBoy83 wrote on Jun 4th, 2009 4:41pm

you are beautiful! and if i could do it , i would come and scoop you up:)


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