So I just finished my first week at University. I was really looking forward to getting here. Fresher's Week was awesome, my flat mates are really good people, the area's fantastic, and I love the course so far.
So why do I want to rewind time back to to years ago, to the start of year 12? I want to see my friends again. I want my family. I feel like I can't cope, even though I know that I can. I just feel anonymous, lost, nostalgic. I can't stop thinking about home. And everytime I do my stomach churns. I'm sure this'll be a temporary thing, I'll make friends, settle down some more, get into the swing of it. But right now I feel totally disconnected. I just want a massive hug. I've never been homesick before. Maybe it's because I went so far away. Essex to Cardiff is a big jump to make.
For now, I'll try not to think about it. I'll put myself out there, get to know people, enjoy myself. I know I'm not the only one, but I just wanted to vent.