This is an an apology to anyone who has talked to me in the past week or will talk to me anytime in the near future. I've been an emotional fucking wreck since the 22nd, as that's when I was forced to say goodbye to the first place I loved being in and the first person to ever make me feel happy. Coming back to Maryland and having an earthquake, hurricane, and just remembering what life is like here has made me depressed as hell. I cried myself to sleep last night wondering if and when I'll ever get out of this shit place and see the person who made me feel good about myself again. Talking to me recently probably hasn't been very enjoyable, and I apologize. I wish I had a better outlook on life at the moment, but all I can think about is how damned happy I was just a week or so ago, and I just can't seem to push forward in my life without feeling like I'm sludging through it.
I also wrote this in a very emotional state with my laptop almost dying, and I will not reread it before posting it. I will instead just copy and paste it.