Took down the two mp3's I had up. Only reason they were put up was as a general sound clip for the V series thread. They were a quick recording job of all random shit I made up on the spot, one sounded really muddy and the other was too thin, so I'll record some real stuff soon, hopefully.
My blacked out drunk ass fell backwards in my chair ontop of my guitar (someone told me), and I didn't notice any damage until I saw the straplock today. The screw bent, the peg angled into the body, and tore into the wood. I'm going to have to work to restore my poor baby's strap peg.
I've become so tired of people who say they'll do things backing out or leaving me hanging with no explanation.
For example, I went out with a friend yesterday, and she said I should come to lunch today, also, since she was going out with another friend to lunch anyway. So I said "sure, sounds awesome, just let me know when." So I woke up today, waited around a bit and she didn't call, so I called her, and it just rang. I'm pretty damn sure she would have her cell phone on her, or at least call me back when she saw a missed call from me.
So then I was on my way to the pharmacy, and happened to drive by where she said they would be eating, and low and behold, her car is in the parking lot.
Also last night, someone said they'd let me know if they had room in the car to take me to a concert they were performing in. I just texted him and he said they were already there and there was no room, but I mean, it only takes a text to let me know and not have me sitting aorund wondering.
I'm tired of people saying I can come to things and they'll let me know etc, and have me sitting around doing nothing because I thought they'd call me, or they wont answer their phone.
I'd happily have accepted "Sorry, I just want to eat lunch with my other friend today." But no, we have to pretend our phone was magically not in our pocket and we didn't see the missed call.
It's not fair to leave someone sitting around waiting for your call thinking they have plans and then ditching them for no damn reason.
So I went to a physician who specializes in this today because I've had awful trouble focusing lately. Whether it is schoolwork, conversations, or even learning songs on the guitar.
I've started on a daily 12 hour medication that I'm going to see how it works for me, and in what dosage, and maybe I'll be supplemented with one of the short term ones for at night when my long term medication drops off.
I never really used to believe in ADD, I always figured you're just not hitting your kids enough or something, like many do. I do still believe it is over-diagnosed, but for some people it really is a problem. Your brain is made of chemicals, and just like an imbalance can cause depression, or a bipolar disorder, it can also cause your brain not to focus on activities and to be sporadic in those it performs. No, that doesn't mean I'm stupid: I am a rather bright, knowledgeable, and logical person, I just have trouble focusing to apply myself.
An ADD brain is much less active. You might think "WTF? I thought these people were meant to be hyperactive and always thinking different random stuff? Why would a more active brain stop you from being hyperactive?" Well, yes, ADD people can me hyperactive, sporadic, and think a lot, but a less active brain has less control of the body, and therefore it can't control you from doing impulsive actions, so you are still active, but you're sporadic and can't focus on one thing at a time.
Here's a brain-scan to show you; For those of you who are visual people like me.
I'm stuggle to convince my parents that I need this medication; but neither of them believe in medication to fix problems. My Mom says "you can't be on medicine for the rest of your life; it's just not worth it." And "Everyone has times like this." but she doesn't seem to understand that I'm to the point where I have no drive, no ability to work by myself, and without help I'm not going to have a good life.
If you'd like to add a comment or opinion I'd gladly welcome it.
I pay and have paid for all of my gear myself by actually having something called a job and saving. I also have what I have for the most part because I get things that are good deals and I buy one thing at a time with a large space between purchases.
My guitar is around 4 years old and I only have one guitar. I got my cab on closeout for only $260, around 2 years before the head. I got my head for only $260. My bad monkey was $30 used from someone on UG. My metal master was $79 and was a birthday gift around 3 years ago.
The little practice amp was a birthday gift around 5 years ago, and was around $100. The crate powerblock was $150 on ebay, and my dad was nice enough to help me pay for it a few years ago so I could play a talent show at school and be heard, because I didn't have the money to buy it in time.
The small black bass amp you see in some pictures is my friends and I borrowed it for recording.
Stop calling me spoiled. It gets really old when I actually do work and have a budget unlike the kids I see with two LP's and a 5150 that mommy bought them.
The break of her smile radiates in the shadow of the death of another day,
And circles I dared to join rest on me, and I bear the game I dared to play.
Her glass lips flow unto mine, until dead nerves sink and claim they're just fine.
And the little bit that's left of me melts and seeps to the open world.
It's bliss for now...
But dawn will disagree,
And the aching silence I lie in will mock my shattered self.
"I understand that some people find God after misfortune, although this
seems to me even more ridiculous than finding Him in good times. "God
smote me. He must love me." It's like not wanting a romantic
relationship until a member of the opposite sex punches you in the
face. My "miraculous survival" will not change my opinion that Heaven
is an idea constructed by man to help him cope with the fact that life
on earth is both brutally short and, paradoxically, far too long."
I'm happy to say that I'm getting a Blem Crate V100H for $260, which should arrive this weekend.
I tried the V50 out in Music-Go-Round today, and it sealed my decision that this was a deal I couldn't miss. I really wanted the 6L6's in the V50, but I needed a 4 or 16 ohm output for my cab, so the EL34's will be just fine.
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